Beaten

The way he dressed
Seemingly to impress
Used his deep baritone with such finesse
Everything bout him screamed success...
He had a job..money...own place...HELL YES!!
In her he showed genuine interest....
Made her melt with kind gestures..
Things she never received from other guys..only seem to reassure
She made the right decision to accept his advances
And give him the chance
To show her love truly exists...
After months of bliss...
Seems like reality set in
She was merely questioning
About his past....
Not trying to be intrusive at all...
Somehow...he took it that way...slams his fist against the wall..
Seen her girls go thru this...
She not wanting any part of this....
Her intent was not to make him mad...
She felt the need to pack her bags
He comes to her looking hurt and sad..
Offers some sad apology bout how his job is stressing
And messing
With his thoughts..
And how all day he fought
And apologizes if she thought
He would cause her harm....
And says how he wishes to hold her in his arms......
Uses those irresistible charms...
Before long...their lips and skin touch..
Real passionate and stuff
With each stroke
She seemed to forget whatever it was that would evoke
That earlier circumstance....
And thought he does work hard...and chucked it up to circumstance....
But it wouldn't be too long before his rage and her fear would be doing that awkward dance...
On a night out
He thought she was paying a little too much attention.. to what the waiter was talking bout....
Bitch! I aint ever been so disrespected....
Held it in..but I should have checked it...
She exclaimed....who are u talking to?
At that his fists flew....
He yelled...see what u made me do?
Nigga fuck you!!
Pushed her against the wall.....
Started to confess to her..
His true feelings for she...
Bitch you aint shit without me!
You're fucking beneath me....
Don't quite remember how the night ended...
But awoke to see her wounds haphazardly mended....
In he came...kissed her forehead
Breakfast in bed...
And went on about his day...
She didn't know what to think or to say...
All she knew was she couldn't continue to live this way...
Yet again...his words
Somehow eased her nerves....
Put in her mind that she wasn't submissive to her man..and got what she deserved...
Already fragile she questioned her self worth....
You not gonna find another nigga like me...
See...
Remember in the beginning...u wanted this this and this....
I got it so you don't have to work for shit...
Before me you were a basic bitch...
Dumbed down the rules for you...now you know the basics bitch
In which
She found it increasingly hard to function
Under the assumption
For her every action
There would be a painful counter-action
If she didn't meet his preset level of satisfaction...
State of fear
Whenever he was near....
Trembled with tears....
Who could she run too?
Didn't want to hear all those ' I told you so's'
Nor could she handle the mental blows...
Physical beatings heal...but those
Abusive words crushed her esteem..
Never did she dream
She would endure
Such physical and mental torture..
On this night...he was quick to provoke...
She tried to make a joke
Obviously he didn't find it funny....started to choke...
Her....
Clawing and scratching....gasping for air
He starts smacking her...grabbing her by her hair....
Pulls her on the bed...
Enters her forcefully....
Hand over her mouth
So she can't scream out....
Hours later he is sleep....
Very deep
She slowly creeps
In.....
Standing over him.......
Butcher knife in hand....
How she despises this man....
stabs him.....again...again....
For all the pain....the chagrin....
For the abuse
The blatant misuse
Played
Betrayed
In her rage
She kept stabbing...and stabbing...
Unconscious of what's happening
Unrelenting tears...
Seems she silenced her fears...
Now she lives out the rest of her years
Incarcerated....for killing a man she now hated....
Antonia McDowell...you endured such pain....
I just hope...some can get out...before their fate is.....
The Same.......
One Love