Suicide Romance

All the while I was loving you...

You were telling folks you were single and could do 

Exactly what you wanted to

All the time I was so into you..

You would tell others how much I annoyed you...

Always telling you how much I loved you..

And the thought of that just sickened you

Spent so much time trying to prove to you that I was not like that last nigga

I figure 

You knew that

In fact I felt that was what held us back

I wasn't him...you knew me....

You knew how he'd be...

You couldn't see me

Or even what WE COULD BE

Too busy looking in the rear view

Girl you know it's true

Your intentions were fraudulent like Mili vanili

Lol...but you ain't feeling me

My silly ass was content with just a piece of you...

Like a star struck fan....happy with just a glimpse of you..

Stupid is just how I feel...

Can't shake it off...like damn is this really real?

I'd question shit..

Never wanting to discuss it..

Shut me down...

Shut us down...

Spiraling down

Down 

Down 

And as dumb as I sound

I continued to stick around

Now I'm so numb...

Still so dumb 

Heart's broken

And I'm hoping

For yet another chance..

To experience this suicide romance...

Sobeit

A misconstrued notion
Filled by weakest of emotions
Find yourself played
Lost in many ways..
Breaking all your own rules
And the foolish things it made you do..
Cuz once the good morning texts...
Morning calls stop...Damn what's next
Passionless sex
Everything she does/he continues to do..
Bothers you...
Irks your nerves
Speaking using unkind words
Hostile verbs..
What was it to begin with?
Why did it have to end like this?
You laying in your bed.
Thoughts of them flowing thru your head
Wanna talk...but you bury your face in the pillow instead.
Don't believe in it...
Don't want it...
Admittedly.. there was a point and time.. I screamed it..
Dreamed it..
Would tell anyone who listened..
How I was lost in it....
Nose wide open..looking back I'm so disgusted..
This feeling... So useless
Fruitless
Truth is
This thing called love is....
Not for me..
I've failed miserably
Y'all can keep it...
Guess that means I'll forever be alone.....
Sobeit

Blaze

I speak the truth so much it hurts...

What's worse 

Is

Nobody believes in me...

Sure they connect a few lines...

Pat me on the back a few times...

But hell what do I expect?

I'm gonna write it and express it...but y'all can't see it through my eyes yet...

Enter my soul

Truth be told..

Catch me now...cuz when things unfold

I'm a hot blazing comet

Nonstop it

I got this 

Infinite gift...

Record it..

Recite it...

Erase it...rewrite it..

Man I'm so excited

History re-spit it..

In my mind picture how I'd live it..

Just as powerful as God's vision for Konscript 

Look at my seeds and tell them... Yeah we did it...

Gave me so much inspiration...love when my heart wasn't in it..

When my mind drifted

To abysmal depth...

Your expression of love did much more than just help..

You saved me...

That love y'all give continues to amaze me...

Doing it for y'all.. Us...

We...not just

Today...tomorrow...and many days from now....

Gonna show them how

The mended mind of a King will always reign...

And that's just the first part of the game...