Nickels and Dimes

Nickels and dimes…
trying to find my way thru these days and times…
counting loose change
as I try to arrange
my mindframe
to think positive again…
these situations
that cause a lot of my frustrations…tears stream down my face and thru it all… I am feeling less and less
confident that I can navigate thru this mess…
I confess
sometimes I wanna put it to rest…
but damn that! I am gonna beat my chest…
grind hard and be prepared for success… oh no I ain't talking bout cashing checks… speaking on things money can't buy…peace of mind…
taking care of mine…
looking in their eyes…feeling a sense of pride…
that I provided these happy times
using my nickels and dimes
One Love

Deuces

Time to chuck u them deuces
Truth is
I can no longer do this
We always scream fuss and fight...this shit is so useless
To think we can work it out is hella foolish
Add it up...u act like you don't know what 2+2 is...
Talking bout what you leaving me 4...
See its time I even the score...
On the bullshit rhetoric
That niggas aint shit...
Hold up chick...
Its like ur mentally unstable
In conversations you aint able
To be civilized and not raise your voice...
This here...is ur choice
So like Mary...no more drama...
Imma
Chuck them 2's up
Cuz a brotha had enough..been fed up
So now u stuck.......
And I honestly don't give a fuck
One Love

Depress

Dark place...
Sad face....
Fucking head case....
If u submerged urself in my process of thought...
The many battles I fought...
Just for the simple things..
And end up with nothing....
As I child I wanted love...
Prayed to the dude up above..
All I got were bullshit promises...
Like baseball...a lot of swings and misses....
Gonna hear a lot of hisses...
Kinda gave up on this thing called religion
Maybe its an ill decision..
Oh well..
Already trapped in hell
My own personal purgatory
Please save the preaching that will quickly bore me.....
This is my fucking story
Used to cry out for help...those close to me would only ignore me!
Running on empty..
What the fuck yall want from me?
Gotta fragile psyche
Hold so much in...feel imma spaz out...
Say something crooked imma lash out...
Ready to explode...
So many highs and lows...
My mood in the next hour...man who knows...
Quick question....
Am I the only one fighting this wicked bitch called depression?
One Love

Stranger

Fucking demon....
My blood pumping..so full of steam
And...
You supposed to be Dad....
Shit I'm so fucking mad..
After all we been through
And this from you?
My baby sis...
What kind of animal would expose her to shit like this?
She already has a fragile psyche..
And now cuz of your demented action....her mindframe is...its because of me....
She is constantly blaming herself....
I'm hurting inside cuz I can't help...
Tears of frustration....
Why did you put our family thru this situation?
You know how much we forgave you for?
This is the way you even the score?
As a father you left me wanting more...
Absent father...
Why did we even bother?
Been a fucking alcoholic....
Ugh you make me sick..
So fucking sick!!!
Fucking derelict!!
Married that wicked witch of a step
mom...
In comes your alcoholism and so on...
You putrid bastard
The mix of you and fatherhood pure disaster
Took our chances
When it came to you and finances.....
When I get married..imma have one of my bros. walk me down the aisle...
Cuz hopefully I won't be seeing you for a long while
Baby sis...
Understand this....
No how...no way your fault..
Can't make it more evident
So sorry this was your excuse for a parent..
I promise to be there for you...
These words you can hold true..
When you need an ear to talk to....
I'm here...
I love you...
One Love

Heavy Load

Understand see....
I'm just a man see...
Though I try to be
Everything you need
Take my words in heed...
The will is strong..but the body is weak..
At times the outcome looks so bleak
If the outside world don't beat me in....
Then
I'm war battered and bruised
Took all my worth....I'm used...
Up....
Don't wanna give up....
Held these feelings in..
Far too long....
Don't think I'm strong
Enough....
Go head call my bluff...
Weak and weary
Fear we
On opposite ends
Of making amends
Push...pull...
Pull...push
So much friction....
Tension...
Not to mention
Steady stressing
I'm learning lifes' lesson
No need for second guessing
Life can be somewhat depressing
Deep dark and full of despair
Tight lipped...you may think I don't care
Its just how I keep from letting it take my emotions there...
That bad place...
Full of rage place..
Keeps an angry scowl on my face..
Emotions get locked in...there's no saving grace...
Things aren't always as bad as it seems...
I mean...
Outside looking in...
Inside looking out...
No doubt...
Its horrifying....you know what I'm talking bout...
This heavy load on your back...
Gotta think clearly before I react
Even over react
Got to get it together in life...seeing how the odds are stacked..
One Love

Get of that ish

She came at me sideways
Speaking that helium talking bout I don't know what's wrong with u men nowadays..
Saying all u niggas aint shit.
Only wanna hit...
Then its on to the next bitch...
Tryna get some female to pay
Ur way..
Thru life..
Let one of "yall" come at me like that Imma stab him with my knife....
What the fuck..
Sis pump ur brakes...
I've heard as much as I can take..
U talking all that real but u hella fake
U fall in love with a joke..
Or better yet was it his stroke..
From the outset
Dude came thru talking bout sex..
on some we need to get to know each other..but yet
You giving out coochie coupons
That be the bullshit you're on
That wack ass mantra all dudes are the same..
Do better..its so lame..
Check this
Some cats are reckless
But them the niggas YOU choose
They use and abuse
Common denominator be you
stop being a hater boo..
Its true..
U not taking ur time are u?.
A man can only do..what u allow him to..
That's just my point of view...
One Love

Dreams

At night I lay awake...terrified
Scared to close my eyes..
These dreams have me traumatized
Visions of me in a wreck...permanently paralyzed...
Watching the evening news
Can paint life in disgusting hues
Hell no...its not all good
Kids dying every day in every hood..
But some of us so damn blind..
Acknowledge the problem but say its not mine...
We so numb
These crimes be so reckless and dumb..
2 year old shot dead...some activist talking bout he has a plan of action
Let's get signs and go march..met with an even lameduck reaction..
Just recently watched the movie 2012..
I'm like what the hell?
Basing everything solely on science
Not relying on the man upstairs at all for guidance..
Not tryna be on the soapbox..
But we gotta believe in something greater than ourselves so kick rocks..
I do my thing..mentoring this young dude
That used to be hella rude
Used always tell his momma she get on his nerves cuz she always bitching
Was never in class...always ditching
Told him this aint the good life ..
On this ride there will be nothing but struggle and strife...
Do something positive with ur life...
Change gonna come...
I'm steady dreaming.....
One Love

Crime of Passion

Been casing this joint for some time now...

Reliable inside source gave me the know-how..

Tip-toe

Thru the window

Open it real slow....

Looking for the safe..

Where they keep hella cash flow..

Darkness...use flashlight...

Make a right..

3rd door on the left...in my sight

Sudden movement..

Cant be happening

Rattling...

Keys jingling....

Door squeaking...

Click clack...

Clack click...

Footsteps on the wooden floor...

Gotta make my move soon or...

No other option...

Waiting and watching...

Pull out my piece...

Jump out...Gimme the loot..

The woman screams Dont Shoot!!!!!

Gimme the fucking loot!!

Please dont shoot!!!!

Startled...she falls down

Wearing a sexy black gown...

She caught my eyes...

Tryna size her up

Gazing at her thighs...

As the fabric starts to ride up.....

I dont have much money...

Dont know what u want from me...

Didnt know what to say..

as i rack my brain...she blurts out...

Here u can have ur way....

With me...

Robe opens...

Damn she sexy...

She sits on the bed and says come here Daddy...

Seductively....

She undresses me...

Slowly lets her tongue caress me...

Nibbles...

Pulls...scratching.....

She know just what she doing...

They way she moving...

Touching my spot..

Damn its hot..

Im looking at her viddles...

Wanna penetrate her middle...

Make it sensual

A blast

Like keith make it last

4ever

I endeavour

To treasure

This day..

Sexually enticing

Roleplay....

Some say its critical

To make it more than physical

Massage the mental...

So when I apply linguistics..

To her clitoris

She explodes in multiple fits

of orgasmic bliss

Various positions ensue.....

Its true...

No one does her body like I do......


One Love

Dreamcatcher

Dreamcatcher..
Caught up in your rapture
After...
Glow..
Smooth out the tempo
Let it flow
Foreplay
12 play
More than a million ways
Karma sutra
Whatever style best suits ya
Gotta know when its happening..
Spine tingling
Body singing
Don't even have to say it
Facial expressions display it..
Exchange kisses..tongues doing the tango..
Grinding and the perfect angle..
Holding her tight...
Feeling so right..
Soft moaning...
Inhale..exhale..breath on it..
Sweat dripping
Body glistening
Moonlight
Hits skin just right..
Mmmm my treat..I wanna bite
Wrap ur body tight..
Outta sight
This ride to ecstasy
Between u and me
Is like something from my dreams....
One Love

Crates

Digging in the crates
Listening to the genius of greats
The soundtrack of life starting
with Marvin Gaye
Troubled world wasn't ready for thee
Mercy mercy me,things ain't what they used to be
Hardly ready for Marley
Buffalo Soldier dread like Rasta
couldnt even fool with it partna
No Woman No Cry
cuz I was full of pride
There was no Holiday
Too bad Billie never got her day
Hathaway,if I had my way
Forever would your songs continue to play
A Song for You,
Donny, what made you do them things you do?
Seems masterpiece after masterpiece you never found that inner peace
Otis Redding,
somewhere between here and heaven
Sitting alone on that dock
But that boy Jimi sure could rock
been carbon copied by some,
but that Hendrix swag
is so automatic
But then.....
Phyllis Hyman
Frankie Lymon
Why them?
Hurts when the music stops spinning
Seems as if you on the brink of greatness
Your life is short and twisted as your eventual fate is....
One Love

Addiction

My boys saying this girl got ur brains leaking...
Cuz every time she start speaking
I'm seeking
To find
why this special love is mine..
She so spectacular
Dig everything about her..even her vernacular
Lol...the funny lil way she says R-uh..
I tell u I dig her whole aura..
with our convo its like connect the dots...
Laughter never stops...
she got me wide open
I'm Jonesing
For my next fix...
Never had anything like this..
This that bubonic
Supersonic
Futuristic
Thousand times better than chronic...
More insane
Than cocaine
When love calls ur name....
I swear Imma overdose
Cuz ur the most...
Love...the sweetest addiction..
No cure for this affliction
One Love

2010

In the year 2010
I picked up a pen
Started to spin
Tale after tale....
Detailing countless sessions
Causing mental erections
That ejaculate into thoughts of more than just fantasy...
See...
Then I switch the game up...
Give them my truth and most lame up...
Don't understand my mental frame up...
I write from my eyes...
I didn't realize
That as long I'm freeing my mind...in a sense
Trying to cleanse
Thoughts of despair
Why should I care
Of the opinion of the masses..
Those asses
Didn't give a fuck less..
But my confidence I put on the shelf..
Days on end
I would coil up like a snake
Lash out and take
This uncontrollable rage..
And spew venom on the page....
Writing thru highs and lows....
Only those
In tune with my spirit
Understood...but I don't blame them for not wanting to come near it....
I say it
Cuz I was on some outlandish shit...
Was diagnosed with Dysthymic Disorder
In order
To function they had me pill popping
But the mood swings weren't stopping...
Didn't like how they made me feel...
I was unreal
I was mouthy...extra cocky
Thought I was that new Rocky..
Lmao....wasn't funny
But it wasn't me....
Had to find me...
Don't really care if you're feeling me...
Understand this been my journey...
My crazy trek...
In retrospect..
This may have been what I needed...
I heeded
The advice of a friend of mine....
Smile bright....and let my light shine......
Everything works its way out in due time.....
Lol.....seems I found my smile..........................................
One Love

Yellow Light/Proceed with Caution

The road to hell is paved with good intentions.....
Did I mention....
From henceforth refer to me as Mr. Fuck your feelings
And any petty situation within your dealings..
Cuz when I was down and out
None of yall even gave me a shout
So the hell with u and what u talking bout..
Crazy predicament
Heartfelt sentiment
With life long friends...its a long term investment...
Guess u live and u learn...
I could give a shit bout the bridges imma burn
Remember how I had your back when it was your turn....
Aint one to kick up dirt..
But honestly this shit hurt...
Remember I used sneak u in the back window
Cuz u had nowhere to go...
When u were hungry...if I had it..u had food..
Cuz u were my right hand...my dude...
U were my brother
Even though u were born of a different brother...
Won't put another
Before u...
Wish I could say the same for u.
For our friendship..seems like u had a lack of respect...
So I feel its my duty to put that ass in check....
This feeling hits me like a man on car wreck
Understand that sometimes friends grow apart
This shit still hurts the heart....
Imma loyal dude...gonna be me regardless...
Can't be heartless...
Yet...
This aint green light
Not coming at ur head right
Like a acid reflux
This shit kept coming up....
Got tired no need to stress it
So I addressed it....
Bruh don't second guess it
We know my temper...this coulda been worse...
Just wanted to see if u would come holla at me first...
One Love

Wordplay

She says she loves my words
The way they caress her curves
How I comfort her nerves
Put action into my verbs
She says I'm soft spoken
At first I think she is joking
As I speak....she is coming closer
Yet closer
She is watching my lips
Intent on delivering a tender kiss
She says she has to know
The place in which passion just seems to flow
She says she is into me.
Loves how we connect mentally
Way beyond physicality though she says I ignite her sexuality
Once told me she wanna sit on the tip of my tongue
So I can have her sprung
Singing songs unsung
Smiling now.....
Sometimes she says wow....
At how
She loves talking
To me.. Hand in hand walking
Not having a care in the world
Giggles when I introduce her as my girl
Through my words and actions
I give her the best possible reaction...
Nothing but Satisfaction

One Love

Wishful Thinking

Chronic....mixed..in...now I'm twisted
Blisted and high....
Got these ill feelings of wanting to die..
They say men not supposed to cry..
Carrying so much on these shoulders...
Feel like I'm underwater trapped by heavy boulders..
That would prolly be a cruel way to go...
Wouldn't want anyone to know...
Might be labeled a coward or some shit
Cuz I wanted to end it quick..
Slit wrists
Would be sloppy shit...
Pop a few vicodin...
Way to get it in
Then again....
A loaded 9mm to the dome...
What a way to send me home..
Shit if I missed...
I'd be hella pissed....
Jump in front of an "L" train..
Wonder if I would feel that pain..
Jump from the Sears Tower and fall flat...
Splat...
Ugh!!! Who would wanna deal with that....
A myriad of possibilities
Of killing me...
Releasing me from so much pain...
Maybe I should go postal...but shit no beef with anyone
In particular but one..
Lol....I seem so disturbed...
Eyes so red...I'm on the verge
Of one of these
Suicidal tendencies...
Of 1 that will succeed
At my devilish deed...
As sick as these thoughts flow from my head..
Can't help but think I'm better off dead..
Oh no...
Migo..
Don't go....
Why not....
No one shed a tear
Never was happy here...
One Love

Unload

U telling the same story...
Starting to bore me..
With the same bullshit
Thinking u as good as it get..
These honey dips gassing u up
Maybe that's why they passing u up..
U spitting for the wrong reason..
Picked the wrong season...
Turning the temperature up..
U in a goose down zipped up..
Beads of sweat dripping..
Steady slipping...
At ur jugular I'm ripping
Out ur vocal chords...
Feeling no fucking remorse..
Ur cocky confidence..reduced to shreds..
Ur suicidal for fucking with me..
grant ur wish...better off dead..
Instead...
Imma put u in ur place...
Imma fucking pyscho..
U brought it out...I tried to lay low..
Say it aint so...
Maybe u were just blowing hot wind..
Prolly cuz u aint know how it would end..
Nigga I bring chagrin..
Aka sadness
Madness
Death.
Grind u up till there aint shit left...
Dead wrong
King Kong
Aint got shit on me...
Fuck Training Day
Bet u wish u woulda trained for this day...
Alonzo...
Arrange it so ur gone slow...
Articulate flow...
Maybe I should dumb it down for u though
Better yet them fools riding ur dick...
Can explain it for u slick
Cuz I don't do magic tricks..
Although I can make u POOF real quick
U insignifigant son of a bitch!!!!!
One Love

Ugly2

Hate spew...
Trick fuck you!
It aint nothing new...
The opposite of unique...
Twist ur lips to speak
Bout me..
Calling me ugly.
Aesthetically
Some may call u pretty...
Pathetically
They only seek to use u...
Abuse the slit between ur thighs...
Enter u until no longer their nature rise.
Putrid bitch....
Leave u in a pool of cum......u make me sick...
Gotta bottle of alcohol....some razors and a match...
Silly grin....waiting on my plan to hatch..
If I aint ur type
Trick pay me no mind....
Keep ur ill will...opinions to self..
I swear u gonna need medical help...
Slice ur fucking face.....
Zig zagging all over the fucking place
Like that turkey...imma plead my case..
All else fails...
I could chuck a barrel full of nails....
At ur superficial...
Artificial....
So fucking far from special...
U aint shit but another trick
With 5 kids outta. 4 dicks...
Do the fucking math....
Toss ur face in an alcohol filled bath...
Ha ha ha as I sit back and laugh
One Love

Ugly

Calm and subdued
My usual mood
Now I'm outta tune
Pissed off..fuming
32 yrs on this Earth
Pretty sure of my worth
Honestly though I'm kinda hurt
I'm called ugly
Bugs me
Cuz I never judge the book
Based on looks
That's fades...
Too many shades
Of ignorance
Don't make sense
Seems like beauty aint in the eye
Of the beholder..what a lie..
Cuz if u questionably attractive
Fact is...
Fuckers wanna treat u ill..
Give a damn how u feel
Bastards say they keeping it real..
Pretty fucks I should take
A razor blade
And rearrange that pretty face
Ha ha scarface..
Take meds how does it taste
Punch u till u bleeding
Lol I'm seething
Better start believing
Keep reading
If I said it once I said it thrice
So thru with being nice
Try me and pay the price
Worthless bitches all u see is outside
I will take a beautiful and intelligent 5
Over a dime with nothing in between
Her eyes...
Not even worth the prize...
Talk bout looks can kill esteem
Don't let them fools murk ur dreams..
One Love

Sunshine

What was I thinking?
As I watch her fall into a slumber..
Makes me wonder....
How could I be so selfish....
With her hands balled up in a tiny fist...
Deep breathing...
Peaceful sleeping...
Tears swell in my eyes
When I realize
That if my abysmal vision had materialized
I would never hear her squeaky Minnie Mouse voice...
Say Daddy...I love you....and that would have been my ill-advised choice
Got a lil boy that looks up to me...
Tells me I'm the best Daddy...
On Sundays...sits with me and we watch all the games...
And I almost gave it all up.....what a fucking shame!!!
So much deeper than that
In fact...
For a minute in my struggle....I forgot where my head should be at.....
I see things clearer now..
No matter how...
Dark things may seem
My kids are my sunshine
That thought will forever ease my mind....
One Love

Spill

Cut from a different part of the game
My aim
To use these verbs to form various illustrations
Depicting multiple situations
See I don't need the burner to shoot
Words cash checks on nerves like I'm screaming GIMME THE LOOT!!!
With spectacular
Vernacular
I capture
Your mental....chain reaction
In my directors chair yelling out ACTION!
Best believe when I tell your girl
Imma kiss her from head to pearl
She will be on tilt eyes on swirl
When I speak on how I want to change the world
I get minds open...
Listening intently...focusing
I go for broke
Describing pains of my life....for instance my father...that joke
I hope to provoke
Your thought
Not everything learned is taught....
Poetry for me
Been my therapy
Released unbelievable pain....not so angry
Saved me
From..........me
I'm not alone see
There's always someone that can relate with me
Always they feel me
My dose of reality
One Love

Cold Shoulder

Seems like they get the best of me..
Talking bout these emotions see..
I'm talking bout how things oughta be
Shared a connection....we..
Things grew so rapidly
That's when the conversation was bout you and me...
On my mind constantly
Wanting to touch and caress you endlessly
Never gave a thought bout she...
Or he...
Seems like now I'm on the back-burner
Fancied myself a quick learner..
New chapter in book...this musta been a real page turner...
All I have is these simple similes and verbs...
Very same words
That touched a nerve.....
At the same time...got u on the verge...
......Imma gather my composure....
Whatever had blossomed is now over...
Bitter taste.....guess it my dose of...
The cold shoulder
One Love

Listen up fella

Man to man...
We gotta have a plan
A way for u to truly understand
There are certain things I won't stand
For
Nor allow
Our relationship is one of smoke and magic..
Its tragic
Cuz u seem to have no clue..
Of the disdain I feel for u...
I'm not that little boy.
Can't appease me with a couple bucks or a shiny toy..
Its a certain disconnect..
And though I feign respect
I find it hard to keep my anger in check..
U let someone else raise me
used to talk to me bout those old African ways see...
But it wasn't our family
From what I was told
Ur new wife didn't want me around...at 10/11 I was too old
Wanted to lay
Down the law on report card day
Cuz the I didn't get a single A.
Then I would get in trouble...couldn't go to my dad..
For fear this dude would get mad...
Don't even have father to son talks that sad...
Feel like I'm stuck in the past...
How long will this crap last
For the record I'm 32...
With my own point of view...
With about 13 tattoos
Since 16 been doing things my way...
So on my life u don't really have a say....
That was back in the day....
If u want a better relationship u gotta go a long way
One Love

Empty

Been looking for inspiration....
Cup on empty not pulling a damn thing from any situation...
Wish I could rewind
To a time
Where these thoughts would flow effortlessly from my mind..
Its like I'm on my fantasy island...
Straight wildin
Out....
Rhymes clouded with doubt
What's this about?
Used to write to the beat of my heart...
Just sit down and start
Spilling
A range of emotions and feelings
Whatever issues and dealings
I'm currently entrenched
Would leave em drenched
In a sea of similes and metaphors...
To the delight of you and yours
Never one with the pen and the pad
But sometimes I'm hella mad..
Cuz I jot down rhyme after rhyme
And seemingly time after time
I just throw it away...
Cuz it just didn't parlay
With the vision in my head..
Or the point I'm tryna spread...
Too late already cut the dreads...
If not I'd be pulling at my hair...
In spots wouldn't any be there...
New name would be Patches...no longer Migo...
Seems I've lost my flow...
So to the sidelines imma go....
So...save the 'say it aint so'
Not going anywhere...
Just gotta find it......
Get back with my main chick....
She be Poetry...
One Love

FckLove

Fuck love...
U the one I used to dream of...
Oh it was...so sweet....blah now I wanna give that puppy a shove..
Shit is heartbreakin...
At least I don't have to listen to ur bullshit belly achin...
Return to ur side...ha! Chick keep waiting..
No longer have patience
To deal...
You need to understand how I feel....
So intent on keeping it 'real'
Imma break it down
Dumb it down
Show u why I no longer need or want u 'round
So fucking selfish
I'm inches from calling u a bitch
But don't wanna take it that far..
On my daughters I don't wanna put that scar!
Wish my lil sis was old enough
I'd have her fucking fold u up!
Shit enough is that...
Enough...
Always talking reckless
Well look...Check this...
For too damn long...
I've been listening to you sing that sad pathetic song...
Niggas aint shit...
That and this...
What about your part in it?
It takes 2 to tango....
And Baby....I'm ready to let go....
So I'm chucking up the deuces
Truth is....
You weren't ready for this....

One Love

Demonic

I'm out of my mind right now...
Purged demonic thoughts of self
Shed fears...tears...
Till there's nothing left...
I admit I needed help....
Was in so much denial...
Just look how I handled every tribulation and trial...
Internalized everything...
To the point of health problems...
Over the counter pills couldn't solve them..
Talking bout the constant migraines...
Back pains...
More aches...
And aches...
For my kids sake....
A cycle I must break...
Doc said repeatedly
He could guide..but only I could truly help me..
See
Believe
In me....
These not just rhymes...
More than just lines
Its like a peek in my troubles mind
I'm no lyrical genius
Not trying to spin this
I'm just telling my tale..
So these thoughts in the next won't prevail...
One Love

My 12 play

1....
Just u and I one on one...
2..... Introduce u to a few things that lovers do...
3.....u have always been my fantasy..
4....gonna be surprised with what I have in store.....
5.... Wanna put soft kisses down ur thighs....
6. After a few kisses..imma find out just how many licks.....
7. put in overtime gonna work u from 7 to 7
8....I know u can hardly wait...
9......caress every inch and take my time
10.....girl u so sweet its a sin
11....we gonna be grinding to this beat.....
Then on 12 we will hit repeat...
Just put on display
A little bit of that foreplay
Some 12 play
That will make ur body say..
I like it that and this way..
Don't even need that lingerie
Cuz that lil teddy
Couldn't make me more ready
Than I already am..
I mean damn...
Don't worry bout them perfect imperfections..
Ill kiss ur body in each and every direction....
Got my blood flowing..ur sexy has caused this erection ..
Covering ur stomach and various body parts....
Lemme kiss those beautiful stretch marks...
Call me silly but I only see a gorgeous work of art...
Boom Boom goes the tune in our heart...
U acting so shy and sweet...
But u know we bout to be a beast in these sheets...
Sttaight animal magnetism...
Multiple orgasm
Like the song goes...
Whether its morning noon or night..
I can make u feel alright...
Believe that....I will always have an appetite
That fire that u ignite....
One Love

Beaten

The way he dressed
Seemingly to impress
Used his deep baritone with such finesse
Everything bout him screamed success...
He had a job..money...own place...HELL YES!!
In her he showed genuine interest....
Made her melt with kind gestures..
Things she never received from other guys..only seem to reassure
She made the right decision to accept his advances
And give him the chance
To show her love truly exists...
After months of bliss...
Seems like reality set in
She was merely questioning
About his past....
Not trying to be intrusive at all...
Somehow...he took it that way...slams his fist against the wall..
Seen her girls go thru this...
She not wanting any part of this....
Her intent was not to make him mad...
She felt the need to pack her bags
He comes to her looking hurt and sad..
Offers some sad apology bout how his job is stressing
And messing
With his thoughts..
And how all day he fought
And apologizes if she thought
He would cause her harm....
And says how he wishes to hold her in his arms......
Uses those irresistible charms...
Before long...their lips and skin touch..
Real passionate and stuff
With each stroke
She seemed to forget whatever it was that would evoke
That earlier circumstance....
And thought he does work hard...and chucked it up to circumstance....
But it wouldn't be too long before his rage and her fear would be doing that awkward dance...
On a night out
He thought she was paying a little too much attention.. to what the waiter was talking bout....
Bitch! I aint ever been so disrespected....
Held it in..but I should have checked it...
She exclaimed....who are u talking to?
At that his fists flew....
He yelled...see what u made me do?
Nigga fuck you!!
Pushed her against the wall.....
Started to confess to her..
His true feelings for she...
Bitch you aint shit without me!
You're fucking beneath me....
Don't quite remember how the night ended...
But awoke to see her wounds haphazardly mended....
In he came...kissed her forehead
Breakfast in bed...
And went on about his day...
She didn't know what to think or to say...
All she knew was she couldn't continue to live this way...
Yet again...his words
Somehow eased her nerves....
Put in her mind that she wasn't submissive to her man..and got what she deserved...
Already fragile she questioned her self worth....
You not gonna find another nigga like me...
See...
Remember in the beginning...u wanted this this and this....
I got it so you don't have to work for shit...
Before me you were a basic bitch...
Dumbed down the rules for you...now you know the basics bitch
In which
She found it increasingly hard to function
Under the assumption
For her every action
There would be a painful counter-action
If she didn't meet his preset level of satisfaction...
State of fear
Whenever he was near....
Trembled with tears....
Who could she run too?
Didn't want to hear all those ' I told you so's'
Nor could she handle the mental blows...
Physical beatings heal...but those
Abusive words crushed her esteem..
Never did she dream
She would endure
Such physical and mental torture..
On this night...he was quick to provoke...
She tried to make a joke
Obviously he didn't find it funny....started to choke...
Her....
Clawing and scratching....gasping for air
He starts smacking her...grabbing her by her hair....
Pulls her on the bed...
Enters her forcefully....
Hand over her mouth
So she can't scream out....
Hours later he is sleep....
Very deep
She slowly creeps
In.....
Standing over him.......
Butcher knife in hand....
How she despises this man....
stabs him.....again...again....
For all the pain....the chagrin....
For the abuse
The blatant misuse
Played
Betrayed
In her rage
She kept stabbing...and stabbing...
Unconscious of what's happening
Unrelenting tears...
Seems she silenced her fears...
Now she lives out the rest of her years
Incarcerated....for killing a man she now hated....
Antonia McDowell...you endured such pain....
I just hope...some can get out...before their fate is.....
The Same.......
One Love