Sunshine

What was I thinking?
As I watch her fall into a slumber..
Makes me wonder....
How could I be so selfish....
With her hands balled up in a tiny fist...
Deep breathing...
Peaceful sleeping...
Tears swell in my eyes
When I realize
That if my abysmal vision had materialized
I would never hear her squeaky Minnie Mouse voice...
Say Daddy...I love you....and that would have been my ill-advised choice
Got a lil boy that looks up to me...
Tells me I'm the best Daddy...
On Sundays...sits with me and we watch all the games...
And I almost gave it all up.....what a fucking shame!!!
So much deeper than that
In fact...
For a minute in my struggle....I forgot where my head should be at.....
I see things clearer now..
No matter how...
Dark things may seem
My kids are my sunshine
That thought will forever ease my mind....
One Love