Know what makes me tick
Makes me sick
My ambitions... my dreams
Seems
I clung to you... you encompassed
EVERYTHING
Like I would check in with you before I made any move
Looked to you for proof
That I was able
You never let me down...
Always let me know how crazy I would sound
For believing in ME!
Twisted kinships
Friendships
Left me alone with thoughts of wanting to end shit
When I would speak to others about you... they'd say man up! Or pray it off
Then others think mental anguish are for the weak and soft
So I never spoke on it..
You had everyone thinking I was so angry
Mixed with the fact I'm kinda quiet and no one bothered to attempt to understand me
Or maybe that was you.. feeding me more false imagery
Well whatever the case
I'd always feel out of place
Sometimes you got the better of me and left me with tears streaming down my face
Talked to a professional and all he did was prescribe pills
That would mask how I really feel
The very highs and the bottom out lows
That would put me deeper in the throws
Of suicidal ideations... side effects that may be even more detrimental
To my previous mental state
Honestly I've had more than anyone should have to take!!
Confronted my issues with you...
So done with you... no separation anxiety
Gotta get away from you in its entirety
Gotta get my mind right
So I can get in my grind right
Mentally
Physically
But I tell you that beast depression is true..
Deadly persona that can and will grab you with the same cold clutches like any addict
But so much worse because other people rarely see the proof that it
Truly does exist
