Man I was still on that natural high..
When I saw the news "The King" had died...
See my Princess was born on the 23rd...
So sad and shocked when I heard...
Actual proof...
Thinking to myself this gotta be a spoof
Been a diehard since fan early in my youth..
Dude was the truth...
Pop locking
Songs had your body rocking
Showstopping.....
One of the greatest to ever do it...
That's not how some viewed it..
Child star since the age of 5
For his talent he gave his life
The ultimate sacrifice
Misunderstood...
To keep performing at his level I don't think I could
Or would
Continue...
How they would persecute...
Even crucify
I testify
the greatest entertainer of all time..
It still blows my mind...
Is gone to soon
So many dedications planned this afternoon
Radio stations blasting his famous tunes
Everyone sharing their memories
Over his heartfelt melodies
Its just another part of me...
See
I Remember the Time
When Mike was singing The Girl Is Mine
Didn't even get heated
Told them punk haters to Beat It
They made him wanna Scream
There won't be another not in our dreams
So sad
Homie was...correction is Bad...
I mean....
Dude was killing it in Billie Jean...
A womans anthem....PYT...ya know them pretty young thing
Ma Ma Sa, Ma Ma Coo Sa
Ma Ma Se, Ma Ma Sa,
Ma Ma Coo Sa......cuz you just Wanna be starting something!!!
Had us looking in the Man in the Mirror
The ultimate humanitarian...
Do you understand
How much of his own money he was donating
And..
We turned our back on the man.....
Man or woman...friend or foe...don't matter if you're Black or White
Michael Joseph Jackson in some way..some how touched your life....
One Love
Friday, June 25, 2010
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Catch 22
Corporate sponsorship
Sell your individuality to turn a fucking profit..
Sell your soul to the devil shit...
Looking down your nose
At those
You can't just lock in...
Box in....
Outside of your box...steady watching...
Wondering if I wanna be let in...
They collecting the loot hand over fist
so I know they care less that I exist...
Here's the twist..
I can excel at this
Blessed with the gift of gab...I can deliver an awesome sales pitch
Set high goals..be so driven
No. 1 in sales...that's a given
Can finesse
With the best
With knowledge is how I finesse
Maybe I should wear the khakis and loafers to be considered well dressed
Should I cut off the locks to fit the mold..
Step and fetch it and do as I'm told?
On the other side of the table
This job allows me to be able
To provide
A good life
For my seeds
Take care of their needs
And wants...
Its the ultimate catch-22
Gonna make it do what it do!
Aint that what I'm supposed to?
One Love
Sell your individuality to turn a fucking profit..
Sell your soul to the devil shit...
Looking down your nose
At those
You can't just lock in...
Box in....
Outside of your box...steady watching...
Wondering if I wanna be let in...
They collecting the loot hand over fist
so I know they care less that I exist...
Here's the twist..
I can excel at this
Blessed with the gift of gab...I can deliver an awesome sales pitch
Set high goals..be so driven
No. 1 in sales...that's a given
Can finesse
With the best
With knowledge is how I finesse
Maybe I should wear the khakis and loafers to be considered well dressed
Should I cut off the locks to fit the mold..
Step and fetch it and do as I'm told?
On the other side of the table
This job allows me to be able
To provide
A good life
For my seeds
Take care of their needs
And wants...
Its the ultimate catch-22
Gonna make it do what it do!
Aint that what I'm supposed to?
One Love
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Saga 5
As I travel down this road trip
My mental starts to flip..
Common sense starts to dip..
Rage sets in real quick..
So effing pissed
Wanna unleash some shit..
People say
Don't feel that way..
You made it in spite of
What was
A horrible measure
What part of this lesson am
I to treasure?
Look for the light?
The false spot that's bright?
Aiight...
Didn't know how to love..
Looked at the Father above
Why did u forsake me?
For goodness sake..please..
On my knees..
Crying hysterically
Why me?
Without pain there is no gain..
This shit I look at with disdain
In my mind, I gotta bear the burden
Of years of tears, constant hurting..
What's certain
This got the best of me..
Invisible scars they seem to be..
This situation aint mine exclusively
It effects you..
Millions more than a few..
The evil that these "men" do...
if only they knew
The damage they do..
Tryna close this chapter
Happiness is what I'm after..
Somewhere I hear the devils laughter
Imma haunt u...I'm that bastard !
My mental starts to flip..
Common sense starts to dip..
Rage sets in real quick..
So effing pissed
Wanna unleash some shit..
People say
Don't feel that way..
You made it in spite of
What was
A horrible measure
What part of this lesson am
I to treasure?
Look for the light?
The false spot that's bright?
Aiight...
Didn't know how to love..
Looked at the Father above
Why did u forsake me?
For goodness sake..please..
On my knees..
Crying hysterically
Why me?
Without pain there is no gain..
This shit I look at with disdain
In my mind, I gotta bear the burden
Of years of tears, constant hurting..
What's certain
This got the best of me..
Invisible scars they seem to be..
This situation aint mine exclusively
It effects you..
Millions more than a few..
The evil that these "men" do...
if only they knew
The damage they do..
Tryna close this chapter
Happiness is what I'm after..
Somewhere I hear the devils laughter
Imma haunt u...I'm that bastard !
Saga 4
Thru blurred vision
With delicate
Precision
I compose these lines..
Weave these rhymes
Tell stories of a hideous lifetime..
What did I do to deserve this?
at times I get pissed..
these feelings I've dismissed
For many years..
I've hid the tears
I despise that nigga
In his mind it doesn't figure..
He doesn't understand
Why I don't speak
don't seek
Advice on life
How trife..
When I needed ur ass..
Nowhere in sight..
Doing ur own shit right?
And now cuz guilt corriding
Ur organs u wanna make it right?
Get a clue..
My life aint perfect but went along decent with you..
Few bumps along the way
But hell what can I say.
What u expect man
U kinda forced my hand..
I got kids
Your grandkids..
Put in ur bid
Pay up ur waaaay past due
Til then Fuck You
Times 2
With delicate
Precision
I compose these lines..
Weave these rhymes
Tell stories of a hideous lifetime..
What did I do to deserve this?
at times I get pissed..
these feelings I've dismissed
For many years..
I've hid the tears
I despise that nigga
In his mind it doesn't figure..
He doesn't understand
Why I don't speak
don't seek
Advice on life
How trife..
When I needed ur ass..
Nowhere in sight..
Doing ur own shit right?
And now cuz guilt corriding
Ur organs u wanna make it right?
Get a clue..
My life aint perfect but went along decent with you..
Few bumps along the way
But hell what can I say.
What u expect man
U kinda forced my hand..
I got kids
Your grandkids..
Put in ur bid
Pay up ur waaaay past due
Til then Fuck You
Times 2
Saga 3
He called himself a King..
After all in his name was the true meaning..
He came to this country
To seize the American Dream..
On top of the world it seems.
African men seem made
To dominate
Have their way with women
Try to control their fate
Along the way he made a mistake..
Decided to impregnate
A teen
With a mother heartless
Extremely mean..
Now he in it deep
Oh shit
Real steep
Now he got a wife
Baby to keep
Healthy and fed..
words empty..full of contempt though
Fists of rage he will show
This young chick
Who she think she fucking with?
Smack her in her shit..
Make her ass submit..
I run this shit..
He would torment her
Mentally destroy her.
Physically abuse her..
Sexually misuse her..
He hated her..
She hated him .
He hated self...
Fool needed help..
Its real sad..
This was my excuse for a Dad...
After all in his name was the true meaning..
He came to this country
To seize the American Dream..
On top of the world it seems.
African men seem made
To dominate
Have their way with women
Try to control their fate
Along the way he made a mistake..
Decided to impregnate
A teen
With a mother heartless
Extremely mean..
Now he in it deep
Oh shit
Real steep
Now he got a wife
Baby to keep
Healthy and fed..
words empty..full of contempt though
Fists of rage he will show
This young chick
Who she think she fucking with?
Smack her in her shit..
Make her ass submit..
I run this shit..
He would torment her
Mentally destroy her.
Physically abuse her..
Sexually misuse her..
He hated her..
She hated him .
He hated self...
Fool needed help..
Its real sad..
This was my excuse for a Dad...
Saga 2
Momma couldn't be patient..
In me she saw him..
Something she hated...
A child having a child
Couldn't be more evident
Supposed to be her gift ya know
Heaven sent...
Instead my presence
She treated as a life sentence..
She switched my tears for fears
The nigga would strike her
When he came near..
Clutching me close..
Blood flowing from her nose.
She shaking like a baby..
It was a nightmare
She shaking the baby..
somebody save me...
Crazy
She aint ask for this...
Wishing she could slit her wrists..
Bride by suicide..
his touch makes her wanna hide..
Drunk in between her legs he tries
To climb..
Not this time..
Before he puts it in
She strikes him...
runs..runs...runs..
I hate you..
I hate ur being...
I hate everything..
Nigga fuck you...
In me she saw him..
Something she hated...
A child having a child
Couldn't be more evident
Supposed to be her gift ya know
Heaven sent...
Instead my presence
She treated as a life sentence..
She switched my tears for fears
The nigga would strike her
When he came near..
Clutching me close..
Blood flowing from her nose.
She shaking like a baby..
It was a nightmare
She shaking the baby..
somebody save me...
Crazy
She aint ask for this...
Wishing she could slit her wrists..
Bride by suicide..
his touch makes her wanna hide..
Drunk in between her legs he tries
To climb..
Not this time..
Before he puts it in
She strikes him...
runs..runs...runs..
I hate you..
I hate ur being...
I hate everything..
Nigga fuck you...
Saga 1
Product of a chester
type situation
24 year old molester
16 year old mother..
Threatened by a vicious grandmother
Stating if u don't marry my daughter
I'm gonna make ur life a living hell
Don't dwell
On it too long
Before u in jail singing that sad song
Horrible choice predicated this
occurrence..damn its wrong...
Domestic violence
Granny's deafening silence
This niggas arrogance
Momma lost patience..
Makes no sense..
Cuz of Granny's perceived embarrassment
This is how the story went..
Question after question
Still don't know the lesson
Stressing..
Cause of my depression
Why was I dealt this funny hand?
Why couldn't he be the bigger man?
type situation
24 year old molester
16 year old mother..
Threatened by a vicious grandmother
Stating if u don't marry my daughter
I'm gonna make ur life a living hell
Don't dwell
On it too long
Before u in jail singing that sad song
Horrible choice predicated this
occurrence..damn its wrong...
Domestic violence
Granny's deafening silence
This niggas arrogance
Momma lost patience..
Makes no sense..
Cuz of Granny's perceived embarrassment
This is how the story went..
Question after question
Still don't know the lesson
Stressing..
Cause of my depression
Why was I dealt this funny hand?
Why couldn't he be the bigger man?
Beautiful Independence
The beauty of an independent woman is that she don't need you
She wants you
In my opinion a comforting point of view
at times this point goes askew
Some women wear it like a badge talkin bout Hi my name is Monica I don't need you for shit nigga Walker...what's ur name?
How lame...
Its like applications that offer at will employment
He the at will boyfriend
Can be terminated for any cost
she calling shots like the Boss..
Now he subject to a layoff
Cuz that tough chick stuff ain't payoff
Now he acting blue..
Don't worry she sad too..
We never talk bout the doodoo that some women do..
sometimes be so petty
see I understand
U may have been done wrong by that other man
Don't hold this guy accountable
Gotta hate them odds..damn near insurmountable..
set in his ways u can't change a nigga
Go figure..
Don't make ur goal
To pacify to mold
Not in ur control
U tryna be with a man..
Not raising one.
Can't be fun...
Can't speak for everyone..
But I like to unwrap
My gifts..not have it butt naked in my lap..
Not right away anyway
Along with a phat ass...
I dig class..grace..
Good taste..
she more than a pretty face
Gotta be my homie..my ace
Everything will fall in place..
Aint no games..just understand the pace..
we out there..
U will kiss ur fair share
Of frogs dogs whatever have u
But ur king is out there waiting on u
Until then handle ur B.I.
She wants you
In my opinion a comforting point of view
at times this point goes askew
Some women wear it like a badge talkin bout Hi my name is Monica I don't need you for shit nigga Walker...what's ur name?
How lame...
Its like applications that offer at will employment
He the at will boyfriend
Can be terminated for any cost
she calling shots like the Boss..
Now he subject to a layoff
Cuz that tough chick stuff ain't payoff
Now he acting blue..
Don't worry she sad too..
We never talk bout the doodoo that some women do..
sometimes be so petty
see I understand
U may have been done wrong by that other man
Don't hold this guy accountable
Gotta hate them odds..damn near insurmountable..
set in his ways u can't change a nigga
Go figure..
Don't make ur goal
To pacify to mold
Not in ur control
U tryna be with a man..
Not raising one.
Can't be fun...
Can't speak for everyone..
But I like to unwrap
My gifts..not have it butt naked in my lap..
Not right away anyway
Along with a phat ass...
I dig class..grace..
Good taste..
she more than a pretty face
Gotta be my homie..my ace
Everything will fall in place..
Aint no games..just understand the pace..
we out there..
U will kiss ur fair share
Of frogs dogs whatever have u
But ur king is out there waiting on u
Until then handle ur B.I.
Incoming Call
Like 2 ships in the night...
We slide past each other this aint right..
U coming..I'm going in..
That 12 to 10
In a cycle we spin
U that 11 to 7
Caught in the tailwind..
On the mission for that getty green
By any and all means..
But I'm missing u...
U missing me too..
Steal a few
Seconds to minutes
To hear it...
Ur voice...
Telling u need me..
U want me to touch ur body..
Make it sing..
Do them freaky things..
More importantly
She wants to connect with me..
Exclusively
Just we...
My Queen..
I'm her King..
Can't wait to hold u...
Melt in each others..
Presence..
A little incense...
some soothing tunes..
Set a beautiful mood..
In tune with u...
Gotta love that
Lovers groove
We slide past each other this aint right..
U coming..I'm going in..
That 12 to 10
In a cycle we spin
U that 11 to 7
Caught in the tailwind..
On the mission for that getty green
By any and all means..
But I'm missing u...
U missing me too..
Steal a few
Seconds to minutes
To hear it...
Ur voice...
Telling u need me..
U want me to touch ur body..
Make it sing..
Do them freaky things..
More importantly
She wants to connect with me..
Exclusively
Just we...
My Queen..
I'm her King..
Can't wait to hold u...
Melt in each others..
Presence..
A little incense...
some soothing tunes..
Set a beautiful mood..
In tune with u...
Gotta love that
Lovers groove
U Don't Own me
You don't it like u used to do it
Back in the day,how u used to pursue it this relationship
You offered genuine friendship
My rock of Gibalter
if ever I falter
contemplating a future trip to the altar
That was only the beginning
It was all so simple then
Didn't see it coming...when
You started to act up
Made me wanna back up
you slowly started to change
behaving a lil strange
In my phone asking bout numbers and names..
Your presence to me
Was so ugly
Couldn't even vibe ya see
U were carrying round that jealousy
Showing unnecessary signs of envy
Don't blame me for ur insecurity
Cuz securely
Comforted ur heart..and treated u how ur supposed to be..
This has caused a shake up
Eventually will lead to our break-up
At this point I don't think u could make up
Got me looking over my shoulda
The truth I've told ya
Going in and out
Ur ear..that's not what I'm about..
This bringing my mood down south
Back in the day,how u used to pursue it this relationship
You offered genuine friendship
My rock of Gibalter
if ever I falter
contemplating a future trip to the altar
That was only the beginning
It was all so simple then
Didn't see it coming...when
You started to act up
Made me wanna back up
you slowly started to change
behaving a lil strange
In my phone asking bout numbers and names..
Your presence to me
Was so ugly
Couldn't even vibe ya see
U were carrying round that jealousy
Showing unnecessary signs of envy
Don't blame me for ur insecurity
Cuz securely
Comforted ur heart..and treated u how ur supposed to be..
This has caused a shake up
Eventually will lead to our break-up
At this point I don't think u could make up
Got me looking over my shoulda
The truth I've told ya
Going in and out
Ur ear..that's not what I'm about..
This bringing my mood down south
Writing
Writing
To some it may be weird
But I write how my heart is steered.
Feel it deep within..sometimes I write thru tears..
Detail my fears..
I write so everyone can READ with their eyes
Sympathize when I talk bout pain..
Fantasize with me..cuz my thoughts be kinky
Recognize
Thru my lines..
Will be truth
I dig deep till I hit the roots
Of ur brain
My aim to maintain
A certain level
Til we conscience again..
I spit it how I live it...
Bring it..
Authentic
Never generic..
Will breach any topic...
A wealth of knowledge...
Knowledge of self...
ATM no withdraw
Mentally in awe...
No ceilings like Wayne..
No way..I aint playing...
Make haste..
A mind is a terrible thing to waste...
Got the potential to be great..
Open ur mind while I plead my case....
To some it may be weird
But I write how my heart is steered.
Feel it deep within..sometimes I write thru tears..
Detail my fears..
I write so everyone can READ with their eyes
Sympathize when I talk bout pain..
Fantasize with me..cuz my thoughts be kinky
Recognize
Thru my lines..
Will be truth
I dig deep till I hit the roots
Of ur brain
My aim to maintain
A certain level
Til we conscience again..
I spit it how I live it...
Bring it..
Authentic
Never generic..
Will breach any topic...
A wealth of knowledge...
Knowledge of self...
ATM no withdraw
Mentally in awe...
No ceilings like Wayne..
No way..I aint playing...
Make haste..
A mind is a terrible thing to waste...
Got the potential to be great..
Open ur mind while I plead my case....
Lost Innocence
Friend of mine pulled me aside..
In my arms she cried...
She said growing up..sometimes I wish I died...
What do u mean?
She would paint a horrible scene...
1989
Simple times..the usual hustle and bustle..
Kinda struggling barely getting by..
Mama landed a good job..only problem its at night...
Her friend gonna watch me..his name uncle Ike...
Dude was real cool..
Like he had no rules..
But something happened..he started acting strange..
Swore I caught him staring at me when
I would change..
My clothes...
From then on I'd sleep with the door closed...
He would make me drinks..
Spiked with alcohol I think..
Made me drowsy...put me to sleep..
I wake up with my panties at my feet and his hand between my legs..
Started to scream..he covered my mouth instead..
In a voice that fills my soul with dread..
He whispered..u don't want ur momma losing her job do u?
Her job pays for the new clothes...the new shoes..
Plus u show me more attention then she do..
Staying up late..throwing back a few..
Let Uncle Ike take care of u...
Promise not to hurt u..
He then kissed me with his alcohol tainted dank breath..
Then felt this sharp pain from down below...
Couldn't scream..couldn't run..
No place to go..
Silent tears fall..somewhere between his heavy breathing and the tears...
To sleep I fall...
This would continue for months on end..
Again again..night after night..
Come and go as he might...
Felt like I did something wrong..
Like I told him come on..
We not struggling no more..
Momma doing big things
At work..she happy.
All the while I'm terrified at the darkness Ike brings...
He would tell me how he liked "making love" to me...
I was better than she..
That's what he said as he was destroying my innocence...
How he loved me..
Said. U may only be eleven..
But when I'm with u..I feel like I'm in heaven....
He must have lost track of time..
in comes Mama..
She looks...
Not my baby...
I'm sorry..
Ike was arrested...
Turns out this wasn't his first...
3 more girls came to make matters worse...
Got sentenced to 3-6 years on each count...
12 counts...at least 36 years in jail..
Up for parole next year though..
Big fucking fail...
My friend say 20 years in jail
Don't give me back my innocence..
Ever since...
I can't trust..can't love..I live a life clouded with misery and emotional strife...
He abused me for 823 days.....that's 19752 hours
I had to cower under this man...
No one understands
The nightmare of this man...
Will forever haunt me.....
She wanted me to tell her story..
Fought back tears of my own..
She lived next door...
this could happen to anyone..
Any of our kids can be subject to this..
I pray we can protect them..
In my arms she cried...
She said growing up..sometimes I wish I died...
What do u mean?
She would paint a horrible scene...
1989
Simple times..the usual hustle and bustle..
Kinda struggling barely getting by..
Mama landed a good job..only problem its at night...
Her friend gonna watch me..his name uncle Ike...
Dude was real cool..
Like he had no rules..
But something happened..he started acting strange..
Swore I caught him staring at me when
I would change..
My clothes...
From then on I'd sleep with the door closed...
He would make me drinks..
Spiked with alcohol I think..
Made me drowsy...put me to sleep..
I wake up with my panties at my feet and his hand between my legs..
Started to scream..he covered my mouth instead..
In a voice that fills my soul with dread..
He whispered..u don't want ur momma losing her job do u?
Her job pays for the new clothes...the new shoes..
Plus u show me more attention then she do..
Staying up late..throwing back a few..
Let Uncle Ike take care of u...
Promise not to hurt u..
He then kissed me with his alcohol tainted dank breath..
Then felt this sharp pain from down below...
Couldn't scream..couldn't run..
No place to go..
Silent tears fall..somewhere between his heavy breathing and the tears...
To sleep I fall...
This would continue for months on end..
Again again..night after night..
Come and go as he might...
Felt like I did something wrong..
Like I told him come on..
We not struggling no more..
Momma doing big things
At work..she happy.
All the while I'm terrified at the darkness Ike brings...
He would tell me how he liked "making love" to me...
I was better than she..
That's what he said as he was destroying my innocence...
How he loved me..
Said. U may only be eleven..
But when I'm with u..I feel like I'm in heaven....
He must have lost track of time..
in comes Mama..
She looks...
Not my baby...
I'm sorry..
Ike was arrested...
Turns out this wasn't his first...
3 more girls came to make matters worse...
Got sentenced to 3-6 years on each count...
12 counts...at least 36 years in jail..
Up for parole next year though..
Big fucking fail...
My friend say 20 years in jail
Don't give me back my innocence..
Ever since...
I can't trust..can't love..I live a life clouded with misery and emotional strife...
He abused me for 823 days.....that's 19752 hours
I had to cower under this man...
No one understands
The nightmare of this man...
Will forever haunt me.....
She wanted me to tell her story..
Fought back tears of my own..
She lived next door...
this could happen to anyone..
Any of our kids can be subject to this..
I pray we can protect them..
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