Whether/Weather

Whether you know it on not...money doesn't make the man....

See one thing I can't stand

Is when women equate quality

With the quantity

Of what's in his pockets...

Please...stop it

Just cuz he makes a little bit of money

He ain't the one for you honey...

I'm brainstorming..

Tryna figure out how this became the norm and....

Tryna understand this damn joke....

Seems like its cool for these ladies to be broke....

So called "bad bitch"

A situation in which

She not working.....ain't doing much for self...

But the dude she searching for gotta be blessed with wealth...

Chick...put that Pretty Woman movie back on the shelf...

Oh....I have not forgotten about you brothers..

Who think it is 'swag' to smother

These tricks....tryna wife them...

Despite them

Girls go to the highest bidder....

In the end you so sick...might as well take your heart and flush it down the shitter....

Guess y'all thinking these sentiments are coming from a dude that's bitter...

Of that I'm rather innocent....

Just don't make sense....

Kinda annoyed with seeing those with pedigrees

That don't measure up to half of me...

Saying they can't stand those who don't have any money...

It is so funny....

They have no ambition...

They just sit around wishing

Someone would come...

And rescue them from....

Purgatory.... money make you cum....

Is that right dumb dumb....

Guess the Pretty Woman reference flew right over their head...

#DEAD... laughing my ass off...

Gut check...lmao I won't take the gloves off....

Come at me incorrectly.....swear I will write your story....make that ass.......... a cast off.....

Chicks so bankrupt......

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Bliss

The stories go on and on...Badu

Don't know bout you

But I'm done....so through

With looking at it from your point of view...

At this point I'm like fuck it

The topic so wack you duck it

When I ask things directly..

But shit you expect me

So wait around

Until you think you've found

The moment where you wanna be down...

I ridicule you for how dumb you sound....

Every time we speak I make you smile...

And when we do it lasts for awhile..

I never come outta pocket....

Even though if I had a chance...your body I'd rock it

Straight non stop it...

But I play it off....

Maybe my approach is too soft...

But my desire is deadly..

A taste of a man like me

Would blow your mind like John F Kennedy....

I don't think your ready

For a real man..

Save all that ish while you can...

So called real wo-man.....

I ain't tryna wine and dine you...

Maybe you can find it in your mind to...

See who really loves you..

Better yet who is willing to

Accept you...

See I'm just playing with words..

I see you for more than just your curves..

Despite the fact you say most niggas get on your nerves

I think you're kinda scared...

Not even apologizing for the fact I dared

You to open up....the fact I never cared

Beyond your feeble attempts to diss me like the rest...

For you my heart races in my chest...

You ain't ready for this....

But one day you'll be ready for what I have to give....nothing but endless bliss..........

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Relationship

Man that shit died

When folks refused to set aside

That monster called pride

Let that come in a put up a divide

Instead of talking it out...you bottled it up inside...

Damn the death of relationships...

Now folks only want to have relations....shit

So sick of it...

People forget

They give what they get...

Yes I said it right...

Think about how quick you are to fight...

He's wrong I'm right...

Blah blah blah with no end it sight...

Ugh I can't stand a 'bad bitch'

Be so stubborn....they turn into a 'sad bitch'

Better yet a 'lonely mad bitch'

Some will say damn he went hard...

Oh well...just illustrating the point some of y'all have no regard...for self-respect

I mean what y'all expect

All these clucking chickens

Talking how wet the kitten

Is..... then get mad when brothers only wanna talk bout sticking...

Oh and yeah it was written....

Just cuz you gotta lil bit of dough

Don't equal love...you get what you pay for...so....

Congrats the grand prize is a hoe...

Should have just kept her a one nighter

Instead your simple ass tries to wife her.....

You're a comedy.....killer...

Thinking you're gonna thrill her

With the pipe

Yeah aiight....

Don't care who gets mad...

In my opinion its kinda sad

Some of you mofos be selfish..

Don't understand that ish....

Fuck that! Nice guys finish last...

Such a thing in the past...

I'm not looking for anything yo....

Ain't tryna take it slow

Nobody gonna dictate my flow...

This ain't indicative of my feelings

Just bringing to light some of my dealings...

I'd rather forgo the relations shit...

Cuz it alters the relationship...

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Memories

I wish I had those memories
Kisses and hugs..between you and me...
Holding your hand..
Enjoying every second of being your man
I would do anything just to her your voice...
Such a sweet voice..
Like how say your words....
After a long day..how they would caress and soothe my nerves..
We'd put action to our verbs
Intense lovemaking...
Bed shaking...
Back breaking...
For goodness saking
I'm not taking
You for granted...
I wouldnt take any chances
This love making goes in and out the bedroom
Please dont assume
Im talking simply physical...
I would be making loving to your mental
Embracing your spiritual
Nurturing this thing called love to that next level
See...
If I had those memories...
I guarantee you...they would be our future realities....

Manifesto

She left.........

Thought I had crumbled...and there was nothing left.....

Came to that fork in the road... Didn't know whether to go right or left.....

Felt like turning my back...on the very kids I loved to the ends of the earth...

I was a man that had given so much of myself.... I started to question my worth....

I allowed her unhappiness to define me....

Not realizing the discontent was a problem in she....

Financial struggle....

Dictated the flow...causing constant trouble....

Yet the kids were taken care of....

Shown the utmost example of love....

Daddy day care......

I dare ....

Toot my own horn......

But taking care of these kids made me....

Gave me.......

So much pride......

I was the Lion..... King of the jungle.....taking care of my pride....

Completed me....

See....

I taught myself to cook....

Like this poetry thing... I could pen my own cookbook.....

Filled with meals I prepared with love....
Blessed with talent from the Father above...

Did this because... If I couldn't provide all the duckets.....

Fuck it....

I might as well take care of home from the inside....

Wasn't appreciated.... So inside

It made me bitter.... I figure when your chick starts to lose respect...

In the man she is with.... What do you expect?

I was doing all I knew...

To keep us together... Shit I became the glue...

I was doing doctor visits....
Whatever it is...

To keep shit afloat.....

Oh well..... I wasn't enough....

I knew we had it rough....

But its done....

But now I'm finding out who I am.....

Damn.....

I'm a good man.....

Strong father.....man with morals.... Yes that's who the fuck I am!!!!!

I've laced these verses...

With not so subtle curse....

Yes I spit it with fire.......

To bash her...or degrade her...is not my desire...

Just that since she left...

I didn't think I had the strength..... Didn't think I had any fight left....

At my weakest I'm stronger than I thought....

All the inner demons I've fought...

I will them soon.....

Can't turn off being their father....

Knowing how it would bother

Me......

God forgive me....

Of the slightest thought of giving up....

All I can say now.... is Thank You....for the opportunity to man up.....

This is my Manifesto
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Pray for me.......Please

I cry incessantly
Inner turmoil just messing with me....
A shell of my former self....
My laugh muffled by my cries for help....
So called friends gone...family...there's nothing left...
No more friendships....
Kinships....
Separate from one... And things just end quick.....
Chest beating extra hard.......inhale.......
Tears streaming...............exhale............
I'm losing it......just like I lost my job....
I'm like why God?
I've lost my will my focus...
And everyone around me is starting to notice.....
Barely eat.....
I have no appetite....
Hardly any sleep at night.....
My sugar so outta whack....
In fact....
Been having those chest pains lately....
Hope its not my heart.....
Feel like I'm falling apart....
Being that no one comes around to see me....I keep them at bay....
Tell everyone I'm ok
Just so I don't have to hear them
say
That one day....
One day....
Someday......
I want to yell.....what about today!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I never wanted things to be this way.....
I was consistently
Weaving my way thru life's inconsistencies....
Knowing that my love..dedication and hard work would pay off eventually....
I'm left alone......my spirit.....on empty......
.Spiraling out of control....I wish the devil would come get me..
Never been one to indulge... In drugs and alcohol....
But damn it seems so tempting......
Wanna drink till numb.....
Pop pills...snort coke...whatever till I'm dumb
High...
Figure this will be the only way I can
Get by....
This disconnect in my pain....
Ease the pain....
Until then......why don't somebody pray for me?
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Switching Gears

Out of sight....
Out of mind.....
Out of time.....
Life spinning counterclockwise.....
Listening to words from the wise.....
A reality I soon despise...
Give it time......
Tick....tock......
Seconds ticking off that clock.
Driving down that highway.....
As if I'm switching gears..
Between...remorse....pain....bitterness....and my deepest fears....
Now I'm made to look like a fricking deadbeat.....
Crushes my soul like a brutal defeat...
Can't even hold my head high.....
Pain so grave....sometimes I wish I'd die.....
Kick those foolish thoughts to the side...
Swallow that ugly pride.........
Find myself coasting on memory lane....
Way before the pain......
Better ways...
Better days....
Loved you so deeply.....
Ain't gonna lie.......still do...deeply
Steady weeping.....
Wake up in tears while sleeping...
Can't comprehend it.....
This is how you want to end it?
Screw me and what I'm feeling...
They say time leads to healing
Of all wounds.......so I lift my eyes to the ceiling....
I pray....I pray....oh how I pray...........
Each and every day....
That He put my mind at ease....
That these
Crazy thoughts
How I've fought
So long...so hard...secrets I've kept for so long....
Grudges against those I felt did me wrong....
A lot won't overstand what I'm saying...
With matters of the heart...trust me I'm not playing...
I gotta cleanse my soul.....#imjustsaying

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