Manifesto

She left.........

Thought I had crumbled...and there was nothing left.....

Came to that fork in the road... Didn't know whether to go right or left.....

Felt like turning my back...on the very kids I loved to the ends of the earth...

I was a man that had given so much of myself.... I started to question my worth....

I allowed her unhappiness to define me....

Not realizing the discontent was a problem in she....

Financial struggle....

Dictated the flow...causing constant trouble....

Yet the kids were taken care of....

Shown the utmost example of love....

Daddy day care......

I dare ....

Toot my own horn......

But taking care of these kids made me....

Gave me.......

So much pride......

I was the Lion..... King of the jungle.....taking care of my pride....

Completed me....

See....

I taught myself to cook....

Like this poetry thing... I could pen my own cookbook.....

Filled with meals I prepared with love....
Blessed with talent from the Father above...

Did this because... If I couldn't provide all the duckets.....

Fuck it....

I might as well take care of home from the inside....

Wasn't appreciated.... So inside

It made me bitter.... I figure when your chick starts to lose respect...

In the man she is with.... What do you expect?

I was doing all I knew...

To keep us together... Shit I became the glue...

I was doing doctor visits....
Whatever it is...

To keep shit afloat.....

Oh well..... I wasn't enough....

I knew we had it rough....

But its done....

But now I'm finding out who I am.....

Damn.....

I'm a good man.....

Strong father.....man with morals.... Yes that's who the fuck I am!!!!!

I've laced these verses...

With not so subtle curse....

Yes I spit it with fire.......

To bash her...or degrade her...is not my desire...

Just that since she left...

I didn't think I had the strength..... Didn't think I had any fight left....

At my weakest I'm stronger than I thought....

All the inner demons I've fought...

I will them soon.....

Can't turn off being their father....

Knowing how it would bother

Me......

God forgive me....

Of the slightest thought of giving up....

All I can say now.... is Thank You....for the opportunity to man up.....

This is my Manifesto
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