Another Chance

There'd be the quick little footsteps...
Jumping in the bed....
Feet in my face instead....
My mini me shaking his dreads....
Upon eye contact the other most beautiful lil girl in the world...says good morning daddy....
Gladly I'd make my famous pancakes...
A box of Jiffy is all it takes
To have them jumping to the ceiling..
Man what a wonderful feeling....
I'm looking at the most gorgeous woman in the world...
In my head I'm thinking...Damn that's my girl....
Secretly I've always loved her voice...
Smooth and sweet...tickles me in a place so sweet...
Got a spark every time our lips would meet...
There's something so special...so different this family's vibe....
At any time....
Someone would say something that would evoke laughter...
Fast forward to now...I've caused my world to shatter...
I used to see them everyday...
In every way
What I wouldn't give just to hear them say...
Hi Daddy...
Or hear Nene ask Daddy how was your day?
Tre asking the same question over and over again...
And when I'd say no....he'd ask again....
Making those baked lemon pepper bbq wings...
Dinner for the family...those little things..
I used to take for granted....
Dammit!
This can't be right...
Not my life...
I did this to myself...
I'm praying to the Lord for help.....
I used to pride myself.....
In being a family man...
Had the family.... But I wasn't the best man...
That I know I can....
Be...
That's it honestly...
I am asking God for a second chance...
I'd do anything for my family.....
I just want them back....
That's a fact!
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