Depress

Dark place...
Sad face....
Fucking head case....
If u submerged urself in my process of thought...
The many battles I fought...
Just for the simple things..
And end up with nothing....
As I child I wanted love...
Prayed to the dude up above..
All I got were bullshit promises...
Like baseball...a lot of swings and misses....
Gonna hear a lot of hisses...
Kinda gave up on this thing called religion
Maybe its an ill decision..
Oh well..
Already trapped in hell
My own personal purgatory
Please save the preaching that will quickly bore me.....
This is my fucking story
Used to cry out for help...those close to me would only ignore me!
Running on empty..
What the fuck yall want from me?
Gotta fragile psyche
Hold so much in...feel imma spaz out...
Say something crooked imma lash out...
Ready to explode...
So many highs and lows...
My mood in the next hour...man who knows...
Quick question....
Am I the only one fighting this wicked bitch called depression?
One Love

Stranger

Fucking demon....
My blood pumping..so full of steam
And...
You supposed to be Dad....
Shit I'm so fucking mad..
After all we been through
And this from you?
My baby sis...
What kind of animal would expose her to shit like this?
She already has a fragile psyche..
And now cuz of your demented action....her mindframe is...its because of me....
She is constantly blaming herself....
I'm hurting inside cuz I can't help...
Tears of frustration....
Why did you put our family thru this situation?
You know how much we forgave you for?
This is the way you even the score?
As a father you left me wanting more...
Absent father...
Why did we even bother?
Been a fucking alcoholic....
Ugh you make me sick..
So fucking sick!!!
Fucking derelict!!
Married that wicked witch of a step
mom...
In comes your alcoholism and so on...
You putrid bastard
The mix of you and fatherhood pure disaster
Took our chances
When it came to you and finances.....
When I get married..imma have one of my bros. walk me down the aisle...
Cuz hopefully I won't be seeing you for a long while
Baby sis...
Understand this....
No how...no way your fault..
Can't make it more evident
So sorry this was your excuse for a parent..
I promise to be there for you...
These words you can hold true..
When you need an ear to talk to....
I'm here...
I love you...
One Love

Heavy Load

Understand see....
I'm just a man see...
Though I try to be
Everything you need
Take my words in heed...
The will is strong..but the body is weak..
At times the outcome looks so bleak
If the outside world don't beat me in....
Then
I'm war battered and bruised
Took all my worth....I'm used...
Up....
Don't wanna give up....
Held these feelings in..
Far too long....
Don't think I'm strong
Enough....
Go head call my bluff...
Weak and weary
Fear we
On opposite ends
Of making amends
Push...pull...
Pull...push
So much friction....
Tension...
Not to mention
Steady stressing
I'm learning lifes' lesson
No need for second guessing
Life can be somewhat depressing
Deep dark and full of despair
Tight lipped...you may think I don't care
Its just how I keep from letting it take my emotions there...
That bad place...
Full of rage place..
Keeps an angry scowl on my face..
Emotions get locked in...there's no saving grace...
Things aren't always as bad as it seems...
I mean...
Outside looking in...
Inside looking out...
No doubt...
Its horrifying....you know what I'm talking bout...
This heavy load on your back...
Gotta think clearly before I react
Even over react
Got to get it together in life...seeing how the odds are stacked..
One Love

Get of that ish

She came at me sideways
Speaking that helium talking bout I don't know what's wrong with u men nowadays..
Saying all u niggas aint shit.
Only wanna hit...
Then its on to the next bitch...
Tryna get some female to pay
Ur way..
Thru life..
Let one of "yall" come at me like that Imma stab him with my knife....
What the fuck..
Sis pump ur brakes...
I've heard as much as I can take..
U talking all that real but u hella fake
U fall in love with a joke..
Or better yet was it his stroke..
From the outset
Dude came thru talking bout sex..
on some we need to get to know each other..but yet
You giving out coochie coupons
That be the bullshit you're on
That wack ass mantra all dudes are the same..
Do better..its so lame..
Check this
Some cats are reckless
But them the niggas YOU choose
They use and abuse
Common denominator be you
stop being a hater boo..
Its true..
U not taking ur time are u?.
A man can only do..what u allow him to..
That's just my point of view...
One Love

Dreams

At night I lay awake...terrified
Scared to close my eyes..
These dreams have me traumatized
Visions of me in a wreck...permanently paralyzed...
Watching the evening news
Can paint life in disgusting hues
Hell no...its not all good
Kids dying every day in every hood..
But some of us so damn blind..
Acknowledge the problem but say its not mine...
We so numb
These crimes be so reckless and dumb..
2 year old shot dead...some activist talking bout he has a plan of action
Let's get signs and go march..met with an even lameduck reaction..
Just recently watched the movie 2012..
I'm like what the hell?
Basing everything solely on science
Not relying on the man upstairs at all for guidance..
Not tryna be on the soapbox..
But we gotta believe in something greater than ourselves so kick rocks..
I do my thing..mentoring this young dude
That used to be hella rude
Used always tell his momma she get on his nerves cuz she always bitching
Was never in class...always ditching
Told him this aint the good life ..
On this ride there will be nothing but struggle and strife...
Do something positive with ur life...
Change gonna come...
I'm steady dreaming.....
One Love

Crime of Passion

Been casing this joint for some time now...

Reliable inside source gave me the know-how..

Tip-toe

Thru the window

Open it real slow....

Looking for the safe..

Where they keep hella cash flow..

Darkness...use flashlight...

Make a right..

3rd door on the left...in my sight

Sudden movement..

Cant be happening

Rattling...

Keys jingling....

Door squeaking...

Click clack...

Clack click...

Footsteps on the wooden floor...

Gotta make my move soon or...

No other option...

Waiting and watching...

Pull out my piece...

Jump out...Gimme the loot..

The woman screams Dont Shoot!!!!!

Gimme the fucking loot!!

Please dont shoot!!!!

Startled...she falls down

Wearing a sexy black gown...

She caught my eyes...

Tryna size her up

Gazing at her thighs...

As the fabric starts to ride up.....

I dont have much money...

Dont know what u want from me...

Didnt know what to say..

as i rack my brain...she blurts out...

Here u can have ur way....

With me...

Robe opens...

Damn she sexy...

She sits on the bed and says come here Daddy...

Seductively....

She undresses me...

Slowly lets her tongue caress me...

Nibbles...

Pulls...scratching.....

She know just what she doing...

They way she moving...

Touching my spot..

Damn its hot..

Im looking at her viddles...

Wanna penetrate her middle...

Make it sensual

A blast

Like keith make it last

4ever

I endeavour

To treasure

This day..

Sexually enticing

Roleplay....

Some say its critical

To make it more than physical

Massage the mental...

So when I apply linguistics..

To her clitoris

She explodes in multiple fits

of orgasmic bliss

Various positions ensue.....

Its true...

No one does her body like I do......


One Love

Dreamcatcher

Dreamcatcher..
Caught up in your rapture
After...
Glow..
Smooth out the tempo
Let it flow
Foreplay
12 play
More than a million ways
Karma sutra
Whatever style best suits ya
Gotta know when its happening..
Spine tingling
Body singing
Don't even have to say it
Facial expressions display it..
Exchange kisses..tongues doing the tango..
Grinding and the perfect angle..
Holding her tight...
Feeling so right..
Soft moaning...
Inhale..exhale..breath on it..
Sweat dripping
Body glistening
Moonlight
Hits skin just right..
Mmmm my treat..I wanna bite
Wrap ur body tight..
Outta sight
This ride to ecstasy
Between u and me
Is like something from my dreams....
One Love