Idiosyncrasy

U came in during the storm
War beaten and torn
Inside turned cold...
Black soul...
So alone in my thoughts....like imma die before I'm old...
For many hours I cried....
Pushed pride
Aside
Lose control...for the tears won't subside
Time bomb tick ticking
Its so sickening..
Wish I could be like other men..
Hold all this shit in...
Deep breath...
Tight chest
Even though some would suggest
Not a good way to deal...
But this is my situation....only describing how I feel...
This is real...
So far from poetry....
No one would even notice me...
If it weren't for these lines
Flowing in and out my mind.....
Its like my gift....damn right I wanna curse...
At any moment I will burst.....
Then try to put actions in reverse....
Then I'm apologizing.....
Sadly agonizing
Esteem....lack of self.....
Anybody hear my pleas for help
Lost is that pep
In my step..
Now I'm dealing with lifes heavy burden
No longer yearning
For the pursuit of happiness
I'm sitting on the edge of sanity
No need for pity
In the beauty of chaos
Seems to envelop me
I've developed see
A certain way to keep people at a distance
For instance
How many can say they know who I be...
Know me exclusively
Imma recluse see...
I think I like it this way...
Don't have to worry what others have to say

One Love