Reflection

As a young'n I carried a lot of anger inside
Ugh my vibe
Was deplorable
Such a horrible
Way to be..
See...
Had a shitty
What about me disposition
Always wishing
That something was a lil different
Had a bitter resentment...
Could taste it....
Yuck....spat in the face of mofos tryna talk shit...
I would just lash out
Act out
Spaz out...
No one wanted be bothered...
See I had fathered
This rage that gave birth
To feeling the loneliest on Earth...
Fucked up attitude...
Never understood where it was coming from......uncertain latitude
Crossed up longitude..
6ft deep is where you'll end up if you don't change your mood I was warned..
Honestly my heart was torn..
Me and moms kinda iffy
I'd kick my pops down a flight of stairs in a jiffy...
Baffled why no one wanted to kick it with me...
Blind thinking everyone was picking on...me!
Unconsciously I had no love for self....
Crying out for help...
So worn out...don't think there's anything left....
Someone told me....
Need to learn how to forgive
Angry is not the way to live
Told me "you have to learn to get out of your own way"
At the time I was thinking that was some lame shit to say...
Now I realize
It was not just a silly line....
The only person blocking my path from healthy relationships
Friendships
Kinships....
Was.......MYSELF
Looking in that mirror.....
Made me see things so much clearer..
One Love