Reflection

As a young'n I carried a lot of anger inside
Ugh my vibe
Was deplorable
Such a horrible
Way to be..
See...
Had a shitty
What about me disposition
Always wishing
That something was a lil different
Had a bitter resentment...
Could taste it....
Yuck....spat in the face of mofos tryna talk shit...
I would just lash out
Act out
Spaz out...
No one wanted be bothered...
See I had fathered
This rage that gave birth
To feeling the loneliest on Earth...
Fucked up attitude...
Never understood where it was coming from......uncertain latitude
Crossed up longitude..
6ft deep is where you'll end up if you don't change your mood I was warned..
Honestly my heart was torn..
Me and moms kinda iffy
I'd kick my pops down a flight of stairs in a jiffy...
Baffled why no one wanted to kick it with me...
Blind thinking everyone was picking on...me!
Unconsciously I had no love for self....
Crying out for help...
So worn out...don't think there's anything left....
Someone told me....
Need to learn how to forgive
Angry is not the way to live
Told me "you have to learn to get out of your own way"
At the time I was thinking that was some lame shit to say...
Now I realize
It was not just a silly line....
The only person blocking my path from healthy relationships
Friendships
Kinships....
Was.......MYSELF
Looking in that mirror.....
Made me see things so much clearer..
One Love

Dear Mr. Publisher

Used to think I had some skill...
But people let me know the deal
Here I thought I wrote what they could feel
So unreal
Not a pity party
I hardly
Listen to what folks say
Tend to do things my way
Putting inner most thoughts on display
Almost like I seek
Critique
Far from sensitive
Guess I get what I give
Then I started to think I needed to dumb shit down..
Like I was on that Lupe' Fiasco sound!
Didn't feel right..
To me the rhymes were still tight..
But it wasn't me..
I wasn't provoking thought...
Wasn't natural...felt store bought..
Emotional writer..with tears I fought...
I'd sit back
And wait for those to react..
Oh how they act
Like my vernacular wasn't consciously
Fucking their subconscious see..
Like they couldn't touch the words like Braille...
If not...as a poet I fail....
If you're not mentally fornicating
As I detail spine tingling sensation
Making panties wet...
As I define my sex
Better yet
Talk bout real life shit..
As real as it gets...
Life...death...
Points in between...shit what's left????!!!!
Am I not relateable?
Through my lines not capable...
Perhaps...I'm irrelevant
I'm rhyming gibberish..my style incoherent?
Don't be kind..
Say what comes to mind!!!
So won't be no more wasting time!!



One Love

Picture This

Picture this
That kid
Ridiculed
On the first day of school
Cuz he wearing the year before last shoes
Messed around and caught an ugly growth spurt
Made a mistake of saying his feet hurt
What granny do? Cut the toes from his shells
Oh hell
You know what happened when that September rain fell
His name wasn't typical...
Go figure...folks naming their kids after cars...how original...
Room full of every kind of Esha
And this square ass teacher
Putting extra consonants in his name...I mean damn
Folks always poke fun at what they don't understand...
Poked fun
Called him everything under the sun...
Except for his name...
To them it was a game
Who could come up with funny saying...
Lol...he was the fat kids hero..
At least he took the heat off them...cool kid pyramid he at zero....
Found out his parent were from Africa
They furthermore went all in on his character
African booty scratcher ..Shaka Zulu
Just to name a few...
The light skin kids that never came out till the sun down
Would point sneer and frown
Damn he so black...
In fact
He already knew his lineage
While these fools were just learning bout their heritage
He could trace his roots
To his grandfather's grandfather
When others wouldn't..and didn't bother
See gramps didn't have to take a hand out..
He didn't give a damn a damn about
40 acres and a fucking mule..
Damn hypocritical fools!!!!
Walking round with those cheap African medallions....
Seemed like everyone and their momma had one...
Sally Struthers depicting kids as having bloated bellies
That aint how u see the mother land..don't tell me...
Say imma spear chucker?????
Be some ignorant motherfuckers!!!!!!
My parents
Came to this country for the betterment not to be ridiculed by our distant brethren..
Kinda irks me...
Cuz we Africans....we dirty
Like they in the big city
And my folk swinging from the highest tree..
Not the way it was supposed to be...
Or gonna be...
My seeds will know their history....
Won't treat others to misery...

One Love

Natural Beauty

Maybeline....Loreal....covergirl
Honestly you need to give it a rest girl...
I truly think you're at your best girl...
When that natural beauty is popping
Instead of stopping
To put on this and that...
In fact
That junk don't magnify
The beauty of your eyes...
Just love your lips..
Don't need MAC...but I do need a kiss...
You may think I'm tripping cuz of the extra time....
But to me you're so damn fine!!!
Got these products to conceal blemishes
Baby what the business is?
No such thing as perfection
Even though I look in your direction
And think...I wouldn't change perfection
To you I give all my affection....
Love wrapping my arms round your waist...
There's nothing outta place...
So much beauty in you...
Bout time you knew...
I want these idiots to have the nerves
To tell you they don't appreciate your curves....
I'm drifting off topic..
Let me stop it...
But it pisses me off when the idiots try to dismiss natural beauty
Truly
We all have differences...
I despise those instances
When we allow the outside...
Blind us from what's inside...
One Love

King of Entertainment

Man I was still on that natural high..
When I saw the news "The King" had died...
See my Princess was born on the 23rd...
So sad and shocked when I heard...
Actual proof...
Thinking to myself this gotta be a spoof
Been a diehard since fan early in my youth..
Dude was the truth...
Pop locking
Songs had your body rocking
Showstopping.....
One of the greatest to ever do it...
That's not how some viewed it..
Child star since the age of 5
For his talent he gave his life
The ultimate sacrifice
Misunderstood...
To keep performing at his level I don't think I could
Or would
Continue...
How they would persecute...
Even crucify
I testify
the greatest entertainer of all time..
It still blows my mind...
Is gone to soon
So many dedications planned this afternoon
Radio stations blasting his famous tunes
Everyone sharing their memories
Over his heartfelt melodies
Its just another part of me...
See
I Remember the Time
When Mike was singing The Girl Is Mine
Didn't even get heated
Told them punk haters to Beat It
They made him wanna Scream
There won't be another not in our dreams
So sad
Homie was...correction is Bad...
I mean....
Dude was killing it in Billie Jean...
A womans anthem....PYT...ya know them pretty young thing
Ma Ma Sa, Ma Ma Coo Sa
Ma Ma Se, Ma Ma Sa,
Ma Ma Coo Sa......cuz you just Wanna be starting something!!!
Had us looking in the Man in the Mirror
The ultimate humanitarian...
Do you understand
How much of his own money he was donating
And..
We turned our back on the man.....
Man or woman...friend or foe...don't matter if you're Black or White
Michael Joseph Jackson in some way..some how touched your life....
One Love

Catch 22

Corporate sponsorship
Sell your individuality to turn a fucking profit..
Sell your soul to the devil shit...
Looking down your nose
At those
You can't just lock in...
Box in....
Outside of your box...steady watching...
Wondering if I wanna be let in...
They collecting the loot hand over fist
so I know they care less that I exist...
Here's the twist..
I can excel at this
Blessed with the gift of gab...I can deliver an awesome sales pitch
Set high goals..be so driven
No. 1 in sales...that's a given
Can finesse
With the best
With knowledge is how I finesse
Maybe I should wear the khakis and loafers to be considered well dressed
Should I cut off the locks to fit the mold..
Step and fetch it and do as I'm told?
On the other side of the table
This job allows me to be able
To provide
A good life
For my seeds
Take care of their needs
And wants...
Its the ultimate catch-22
Gonna make it do what it do!
Aint that what I'm supposed to?
One Love

Saga 5

As I travel down this road trip
My mental starts to flip..
Common sense starts to dip..
Rage sets in real quick..
So effing pissed
Wanna unleash some shit..
People say
Don't feel that way..
You made it in spite of
What was
A horrible measure
What part of this lesson am
I to treasure?
Look for the light?
The false spot that's bright?
Aiight...
Didn't know how to love..
Looked at the Father above
Why did u forsake me?
For goodness sake..please..
On my knees..
Crying hysterically
Why me?
Without pain there is no gain..
This shit I look at with disdain
In my mind, I gotta bear the burden
Of years of tears, constant hurting..
What's certain
This got the best of me..
Invisible scars they seem to be..
This situation aint mine exclusively
It effects you..
Millions more than a few..
The evil that these "men" do...
if only they knew
The damage they do..
Tryna close this chapter
Happiness is what I'm after..
Somewhere I hear the devils laughter
Imma haunt u...I'm that bastard !