Level

Klawdhavmercy!!!!!
Just looking at her body would make the average fool thirsty....
She's been thru it all...
Heard it all...
Dealt with all...
Spoon fed
All the intricacies of what you'd do to her in bed....
Instead she wants to know how that brain works in your head...
Can you penetrate her mentally?
She considers herself a treasure....A Queen...can you entice without the hint of physicality...
In actuality...
Can your presence leave her mesmerized..
To the point where she is clenching her thighs..sits back and just sighs...
Saying you want to know her from the inside..
Out...
Yeah that's what I'm talking bout....
Everytime she smells Kenneth Cole Black....
She doesn't know how to act...
You know those simple things....
How to work thru her little mood swings...
And you know the happiness the simplest of actions bring....
And the warmest embrace just makes her heart sing...
The little thing we are doing is way more than sexual...
It's beyond special...
Gotta admit...just like you it's so beautiful...
Remarkable...
Wonderful...
So glad we connected on this level...

Glimmer Man

Hot damn....
Some of yall so focused on Zimmerman
Beams on high..... Catch the glimmer man...
The truth is in the light...
Pisses me off when we choose to fight
Pathetic plight...
Responses so typical
White on Black crime... So hypocritical
How many times I've seen he should burn in hell for what he did to Trayvon Martin
Then we start marching..
Demanding justice...
Kinda foolish....
We rocked hoodies...took pics of skittles and Arizonas
But to the thousands of other Black on Black crimes we don't care 1 iota
Half of yall on that no snitching
But end up bitching
About the downward spiral of our generation
And do absolutely nothing to help the situation
I'm so tired of my people walking round looking like sheep
Yeah this shit is deep....
I mean
Damn.... The way folks reacted to this bull with Paula Deen....
You're favorite rapper says way worse...he can say he don't like dark skin chicks...
And those chocolate bunnies still be on his dick
Go figure
trip over the word nigga
Like we own the word...
That shit is for the birds
We always complaining bout how society has their foot on our neck
Well.. what do you expect?
Look how we treat each other
We make it cool to be shitted on by other races
Lets face it
The "isms" they do exist...
But shit.....
Does it have to within our own culture?
Hatred and criticism swirling around like vultures..
Light skin vs dark skin
BBW... Thick vs Thin
What shagrin!
Lets not begin
With the competition 
amongst women
Supposedly for the attention
Of undeserving men...
Truthfully....they don't care...
The bickering gets you nowhere...
Picking these chumps
1....2...3....pumps
9 months later...mama's baby
Papa maybe
Couldn't you tell by the way he
Only came around to beat it up...when the baby came around he would be Swayze?
Some dudes only way lay up and be lazy...
Really amazes me....
Nothing in this life really phases me
Dealing with my own realities
Insecurities..
Living life how it's supposed to be....
Far from perfect...but I'm gonna continually be me....
Let the heat fester and let it simmer man....
I see the light...shines bright... I can see the glimmer man

Just Be

I just wanna be.....
Well.... I've lost a part of me...
No way I can ever be.....complete
Always be asking why
Forever telling lies
Not many can understand where I'm coming from
So numb....
So fucking numb....
I fake happiness... Fraudulently crack jokes
In hopes
People won't ask me how I'm doing
Lie about goals I'm pursuing
Lie about places I'm going
No ones knowing
I'm really at home
And
Just laying in bed
Instead
Of trying to live life
I'm crying for the lady in her last 36 hours.. I made her my wife...
Don't care for judgements
No need to explain what was or wasn't
Can't handle the sharp eyes.... Their looks so accusing
Shit is so confusing
I spent so much energy refusing
To allow my self to love her...when she was the only one to truly love me
Hopefully she's in the heavens above me....
Riddled with guilt.....stricken with grief
I sit here in disbelief
That everything fell in order according to your plan....
Like damn...
The house...the kids..most importantly you gave me stability....
The ability
To raise our kids
In the same environment... In which you did
For that I'm forever indebted
Won't ever forget it......
Won't ever forget it...

Lifted

Feel like a spirit has been lifted
Shifted
Off course...reverse
I cursed
Obtuse angle
Triangle
Words caught in my throat...they strangle
Me...my truth you couldn't handle
Leaving marks on my psyche like I've been vandal........ized
Thoughts paralyzed
Like a pair of lies
Like these words I'm spitting
They werent hitting
Cuz the point yall missing
Not getting
Anywhere
I dare
Speak on it
It's been 4 weeks on it
My outlook so bleak on it...
No longer the truth I seek on it....
Devil fighting hard..my lack of faith has allowed him to peak on this
Painted a horrible picture...allowed me to peek on it...
Very displeased with the supposed outcome
And then some
Such a peculiar conundrum
Be strong they say...I wonder.... Where  this strength will come from?

R.I.P. to Life as I knew it

I need a blunt.... Or some 1800
Get so zooted...these problems I'd run from it...
A miracle to why I haven't yet done it..
Possibly a part of me couldnt stomach...
Past few days been living in slow motion
Thinking bout my kids and hoping
If they are ok and how they are coping
Not really knowing
What the future holds
Or how to play the different roles
That I know must wear...
Doesnt matter whether or not its fair
Eyes red from crying
No lying
How selfish am I ....she's dying
Put myself in her shoes
Look at it from her point of view...
She can't be cool with this.. 
That's so obvious...
Some may question my motives..
But know this
This woman gave me two kids...
Was there when so called family turned their back on me....
Inexplicably
It was she...
So if you know me...
And know the man that I am...
You should understand
That I would do anything..in my power that can
Ease the burden on my seeds..
Yes indeed...
Do anything for my seeds...
They say God doesnt give you more than you can bear...
Regardless of whether you deem it fair..
.

Unfunny Valentine

She used to say, babe tell me you love me....
I would scoff why don't you just tell me you love me...
My selfish demeanor didn't see
Exactly
What she was trying to say to me...
The late nights
To the constant fights
Thinking no matter how wrong I was.. in my arguments I was always right..
Sometimes I spoke to with words so icy..
Never touched her but my words so loaded
Didn't take a genius to decode it...
That I was so unhappy
Perhaps see...
It was from the constant lies...
Not answering hey constant what's and whys
Me peaking her insecurities
Headstrong on the fact I knew she'd never leave me...
She needed me...
I was/am the perfect daddy
And she wouldnt wreck it....sadly
She asked for a divorce.
Of course
I blamed it on she... It is all her fault
That was my school of thought...
So for awhile now..
I've hidden exactly how
I feel...
Stuck in something so loveless
For me to even suggest
I'm happy in this relationship
Would be nothing short of ridiculous bullshit..
Stumbling steadily till I get on my own too
I attest if you
Don't want to end up in my predicament
Take the time to indulge your girl in some heartfelt sentiments..
Meant to bring you two closer...
My unfunny Valentine
This story is all mine....

Shower Scene

Shower Scene

Sexy
Steamy
You and me...
Water dripping down your back..
Touching....kissing.... Hands on your hips
You quietly moan...more kisses..
Heavy breathing...
Heart beating...
Fingertips
Lips....
Carressing clit..
Up against the wall....
Wanting it all....
Turn and face me.....
Taste me....
Tongue tricks....
Oooh.....shit....
Loving the tongue flicks....
Yeah that's it....
Water must be am aphrodisiac...
Putting that arch in your back...
Talking bout you want it.... Need it....
Wanting me to eat it....
Then beat it....
I know you want it on repeat...
Shower Scene.....
Bedroom.. I mean
Everywhere in between....