Addiction

My boys saying this girl got ur brains leaking...
Cuz every time she start speaking
I'm seeking
To find
why this special love is mine..
She so spectacular
Dig everything about her..even her vernacular
Lol...the funny lil way she says R-uh..
I tell u I dig her whole aura..
with our convo its like connect the dots...
Laughter never stops...
she got me wide open
I'm Jonesing
For my next fix...
Never had anything like this..
This that bubonic
Supersonic
Futuristic
Thousand times better than chronic...
More insane
Than cocaine
When love calls ur name....
I swear Imma overdose
Cuz ur the most...
Love...the sweetest addiction..
No cure for this affliction
One Love

2010

In the year 2010
I picked up a pen
Started to spin
Tale after tale....
Detailing countless sessions
Causing mental erections
That ejaculate into thoughts of more than just fantasy...
See...
Then I switch the game up...
Give them my truth and most lame up...
Don't understand my mental frame up...
I write from my eyes...
I didn't realize
That as long I'm freeing my mind...in a sense
Trying to cleanse
Thoughts of despair
Why should I care
Of the opinion of the masses..
Those asses
Didn't give a fuck less..
But my confidence I put on the shelf..
Days on end
I would coil up like a snake
Lash out and take
This uncontrollable rage..
And spew venom on the page....
Writing thru highs and lows....
Only those
In tune with my spirit
Understood...but I don't blame them for not wanting to come near it....
I say it
Cuz I was on some outlandish shit...
Was diagnosed with Dysthymic Disorder
In order
To function they had me pill popping
But the mood swings weren't stopping...
Didn't like how they made me feel...
I was unreal
I was mouthy...extra cocky
Thought I was that new Rocky..
Lmao....wasn't funny
But it wasn't me....
Had to find me...
Don't really care if you're feeling me...
Understand this been my journey...
My crazy trek...
In retrospect..
This may have been what I needed...
I heeded
The advice of a friend of mine....
Smile bright....and let my light shine......
Everything works its way out in due time.....
Lol.....seems I found my smile..........................................
One Love

Yellow Light/Proceed with Caution

The road to hell is paved with good intentions.....
Did I mention....
From henceforth refer to me as Mr. Fuck your feelings
And any petty situation within your dealings..
Cuz when I was down and out
None of yall even gave me a shout
So the hell with u and what u talking bout..
Crazy predicament
Heartfelt sentiment
With life long friends...its a long term investment...
Guess u live and u learn...
I could give a shit bout the bridges imma burn
Remember how I had your back when it was your turn....
Aint one to kick up dirt..
But honestly this shit hurt...
Remember I used sneak u in the back window
Cuz u had nowhere to go...
When u were hungry...if I had it..u had food..
Cuz u were my right hand...my dude...
U were my brother
Even though u were born of a different brother...
Won't put another
Before u...
Wish I could say the same for u.
For our friendship..seems like u had a lack of respect...
So I feel its my duty to put that ass in check....
This feeling hits me like a man on car wreck
Understand that sometimes friends grow apart
This shit still hurts the heart....
Imma loyal dude...gonna be me regardless...
Can't be heartless...
Yet...
This aint green light
Not coming at ur head right
Like a acid reflux
This shit kept coming up....
Got tired no need to stress it
So I addressed it....
Bruh don't second guess it
We know my temper...this coulda been worse...
Just wanted to see if u would come holla at me first...
One Love

Wordplay

She says she loves my words
The way they caress her curves
How I comfort her nerves
Put action into my verbs
She says I'm soft spoken
At first I think she is joking
As I speak....she is coming closer
Yet closer
She is watching my lips
Intent on delivering a tender kiss
She says she has to know
The place in which passion just seems to flow
She says she is into me.
Loves how we connect mentally
Way beyond physicality though she says I ignite her sexuality
Once told me she wanna sit on the tip of my tongue
So I can have her sprung
Singing songs unsung
Smiling now.....
Sometimes she says wow....
At how
She loves talking
To me.. Hand in hand walking
Not having a care in the world
Giggles when I introduce her as my girl
Through my words and actions
I give her the best possible reaction...
Nothing but Satisfaction

One Love

Wishful Thinking

Chronic....mixed..in...now I'm twisted
Blisted and high....
Got these ill feelings of wanting to die..
They say men not supposed to cry..
Carrying so much on these shoulders...
Feel like I'm underwater trapped by heavy boulders..
That would prolly be a cruel way to go...
Wouldn't want anyone to know...
Might be labeled a coward or some shit
Cuz I wanted to end it quick..
Slit wrists
Would be sloppy shit...
Pop a few vicodin...
Way to get it in
Then again....
A loaded 9mm to the dome...
What a way to send me home..
Shit if I missed...
I'd be hella pissed....
Jump in front of an "L" train..
Wonder if I would feel that pain..
Jump from the Sears Tower and fall flat...
Splat...
Ugh!!! Who would wanna deal with that....
A myriad of possibilities
Of killing me...
Releasing me from so much pain...
Maybe I should go postal...but shit no beef with anyone
In particular but one..
Lol....I seem so disturbed...
Eyes so red...I'm on the verge
Of one of these
Suicidal tendencies...
Of 1 that will succeed
At my devilish deed...
As sick as these thoughts flow from my head..
Can't help but think I'm better off dead..
Oh no...
Migo..
Don't go....
Why not....
No one shed a tear
Never was happy here...
One Love

Unload

U telling the same story...
Starting to bore me..
With the same bullshit
Thinking u as good as it get..
These honey dips gassing u up
Maybe that's why they passing u up..
U spitting for the wrong reason..
Picked the wrong season...
Turning the temperature up..
U in a goose down zipped up..
Beads of sweat dripping..
Steady slipping...
At ur jugular I'm ripping
Out ur vocal chords...
Feeling no fucking remorse..
Ur cocky confidence..reduced to shreds..
Ur suicidal for fucking with me..
grant ur wish...better off dead..
Instead...
Imma put u in ur place...
Imma fucking pyscho..
U brought it out...I tried to lay low..
Say it aint so...
Maybe u were just blowing hot wind..
Prolly cuz u aint know how it would end..
Nigga I bring chagrin..
Aka sadness
Madness
Death.
Grind u up till there aint shit left...
Dead wrong
King Kong
Aint got shit on me...
Fuck Training Day
Bet u wish u woulda trained for this day...
Alonzo...
Arrange it so ur gone slow...
Articulate flow...
Maybe I should dumb it down for u though
Better yet them fools riding ur dick...
Can explain it for u slick
Cuz I don't do magic tricks..
Although I can make u POOF real quick
U insignifigant son of a bitch!!!!!
One Love

Ugly2

Hate spew...
Trick fuck you!
It aint nothing new...
The opposite of unique...
Twist ur lips to speak
Bout me..
Calling me ugly.
Aesthetically
Some may call u pretty...
Pathetically
They only seek to use u...
Abuse the slit between ur thighs...
Enter u until no longer their nature rise.
Putrid bitch....
Leave u in a pool of cum......u make me sick...
Gotta bottle of alcohol....some razors and a match...
Silly grin....waiting on my plan to hatch..
If I aint ur type
Trick pay me no mind....
Keep ur ill will...opinions to self..
I swear u gonna need medical help...
Slice ur fucking face.....
Zig zagging all over the fucking place
Like that turkey...imma plead my case..
All else fails...
I could chuck a barrel full of nails....
At ur superficial...
Artificial....
So fucking far from special...
U aint shit but another trick
With 5 kids outta. 4 dicks...
Do the fucking math....
Toss ur face in an alcohol filled bath...
Ha ha ha as I sit back and laugh
One Love