U Don't Own me

You don't it like u used to do it
Back in the day,how u used to pursue it this relationship
You offered genuine friendship
My rock of Gibalter
if ever I falter
contemplating a future trip to the altar
That was only the beginning
It was all so simple then
Didn't see it coming...when
You started to act up
Made me wanna back up
you slowly started to change
behaving a lil strange
In my phone asking bout numbers and names..
Your presence to me
Was so ugly
Couldn't even vibe ya see
U were carrying round that jealousy
Showing unnecessary signs of envy
Don't blame me for ur insecurity
Cuz securely
Comforted ur heart..and treated u how ur supposed to be..
This has caused a shake up
Eventually will lead to our break-up
At this point I don't think u could make up
Got me looking over my shoulda
The truth I've told ya
Going in and out
Ur ear..that's not what I'm about..
This bringing my mood down south

Writing

Writing

To some it may be weird
But I write how my heart is steered.
Feel it deep within..sometimes I write thru tears..
Detail my fears..
I write so everyone can READ with their eyes
Sympathize when I talk bout pain..
Fantasize with me..cuz my thoughts be kinky
Recognize
Thru my lines..
Will be truth
I dig deep till I hit the roots
Of ur brain
My aim to maintain
A certain level
Til we conscience again..
I spit it how I live it...
Bring it..
Authentic
Never generic..
Will breach any topic...
A wealth of knowledge...
Knowledge of self...
ATM no withdraw
Mentally in awe...
No ceilings like Wayne..
No way..I aint playing...
Make haste..
A mind is a terrible thing to waste...
Got the potential to be great..
Open ur mind while I plead my case....

Lost Innocence

Friend of mine pulled me aside..
In my arms she cried...
She said growing up..sometimes I wish I died...
What do u mean?
She would paint a horrible scene...
1989
Simple times..the usual hustle and bustle..
Kinda struggling barely getting by..
Mama landed a good job..only problem its at night...
Her friend gonna watch me..his name uncle Ike...
Dude was real cool..
Like he had no rules..
But something happened..he started acting strange..
Swore I caught him staring at me when
I would change..
My clothes...
From then on I'd sleep with the door closed...
He would make me drinks..
Spiked with alcohol I think..
Made me drowsy...put me to sleep..
I wake up with my panties at my feet and his hand between my legs..
Started to scream..he covered my mouth instead..
In a voice that fills my soul with dread..
He whispered..u don't want ur momma losing her job do u?
Her job pays for the new clothes...the new shoes..
Plus u show me more attention then she do..
Staying up late..throwing back a few..
Let Uncle Ike take care of u...
Promise not to hurt u..
He then kissed me with his alcohol tainted dank breath..
Then felt this sharp pain from down below...
Couldn't scream..couldn't run..
No place to go..
Silent tears fall..somewhere between his heavy breathing and the tears...
To sleep I fall...
This would continue for months on end..
Again again..night after night..
Come and go as he might...
Felt like I did something wrong..
Like I told him come on..
We not struggling no more..
Momma doing big things
At work..she happy.
All the while I'm terrified at the darkness Ike brings...
He would tell me how he liked "making love" to me...
I was better than she..
That's what he said as he was destroying my innocence...
How he loved me..
Said. U may only be eleven..
But when I'm with u..I feel like I'm in heaven....
He must have lost track of time..
in comes Mama..
She looks...
Not my baby...
I'm sorry..
Ike was arrested...
Turns out this wasn't his first...
3 more girls came to make matters worse...
Got sentenced to 3-6 years on each count...
12 counts...at least 36 years in jail..
Up for parole next year though..
Big fucking fail...
My friend say 20 years in jail
Don't give me back my innocence..
Ever since...
I can't trust..can't love..I live a life clouded with misery and emotional strife...
He abused me for 823 days.....that's 19752 hours
I had to cower under this man...
No one understands
The nightmare of this man...
Will forever haunt me.....
She wanted me to tell her story..
Fought back tears of my own..
She lived next door...
this could happen to anyone..
Any of our kids can be subject to this..
I pray we can protect them..

911 is a joke

Get up....get down
911 is a joke in this town....

Public Enemy..
Flavor Flav and Chuck D....
Said it clearly..
The 5-0
Is a joke yo
They got it spun so well
Another case like Sean Bell
Read certain outlets
Somehow this officer lets
Someone discharge his weapon
Man...get to stepping
With that bull ish....
Must think we are foolish
you can tell by the police chief's stance
They will portray this as a victim of circumstance..
Flash grenades
Knowing this home is where kids stayed..
The First 48 tagging along for this outlandish raid..
Videotape confiscated
Copper on administrative leave still getting paid....
Some reports say the young girl was sleep...
That cuts so deep...
Shot from outside the home
Poor Aiyana Jones .
A shooting like this can't be condoned
And to add a touch of disrespect Chief Godbee made sure to announce they captured the suspect..
Is this what happens when faux reality TV
And a trigger happy cop do things out of their reach....
At the police academy are these the tactics they teach?
Patience with these situations quickly fading...
Wonder how this will effect A&E's rating....
Now your in Heaven....
With no bullets flying through your home...
Rest in Peace Aiyana Jones


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VH1

U gotta go downtown..
That's the way to my love
Lick it round and round.....
SWV giving sweet directions see..
On that next trip to ecstasy
Like Shai..be the comforter
Comfort her...
Make her body Lose Control like Silk..
Do her body good...much better than milk..
Turn off the lights...and light a candle...
Giving each all that we can handle..
I'm the Teddy P
Of this here poetry
Lay your head on my pillow..
Toni Tony Tone..you know
It never rains in southern California...
That's what they tell me..
Let's make love tonight..
Cuz u do it right...
Baaaaaaaby..I'm hot just like an oven....
Damn Marvin Gaye
That's all I've gotta say...
Smooth Operator..
Just ask Sade'
Rub u the right way...
112 this is ur day...
Blackstreet/janet jackson I get so lonely..
Can't let just anybody hold me..
Diamonds and pearl.
If I could I would give u the world...
These old school grooves
Put me in a so right mood

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Family Matters

Family matters...
My fucking reality shatters...
This aint bout Mom and Pops..its bout everybody
Aunts and uncles...
My so called relatives..
Not an ounce of their time to give..
Understand some of yall had kids
But my parents fucked up.. Not their kid...
I was the Outcast
Anger will forever last...
Won't ever be a thing of the past...
This aint going in the rearview
Its clear u...
Yeah all of you
Don't think of the damage it would do..
But later in life would point fingers..
Oh how that lingers...
I was the wild child
Full of vile..
Not gonna amount to shit..
Come to think of it...
An outcast like Moms
Yall ignorance..
Why don't I like yall? Ha!
U bitches suffering from a lack of common sense!
Wish yall weren't part of my existence...
Full of double talk..
In my shoes yall couldn't walk the walk
To raise a child it takes a village
Yall the type folks that alert the enemy..so they can come thru and pillage...
Imma fucking crush u...
Bring u to ur knees and won't even have to touch you...
Compassion for u is something I lack...
Look in my eyes... U should have never...ever...turned ur back...
Mi familia
U looking so unfamiliar

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Backstabbers

They smile in ur face..
All the time they wanna take ur place..

Seemed like u had to have it..
Never thought u would be on that sneak shit.
Didn't quite understand..
Looking back I see it was part of ur plan..
Shit curiosity killed the cat..
But seemed u were thirsty for facts...
Interest peaked..
Lustful intent u seeked..
But we better than that..
This aint how friends react..
U were supposed to have my back
Not chasing my leftovers in the sack!!!
Where they do that at???

They smile in ur face..

U were my ace.
This wasn't a fucking race..
Now u can't even show ur face...
Low down dirty shame
U wanna play this game..
But I know the real u
U suspect...real shifty
How could you?
Hope the dingaling was good boo...
As for us....we're thru...

All the time they want to take ur place.....

I aint gonna lie..
At first I wanted to cry..
Tears thru rage I was pissed..
This how u gonna do me sis?
Thru thick and thin...
And for what him?
Chagrin...
Sad...
U wanted it so bad..
Betrayed me...
Abandoned we...
Ending up like this..I didn't see...
So many fish in the sea...
Dick comes dick goes..
Did u have to play urself like one of them common hoes?
Shit all I wanna know...
Was it worth it?

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