In Spite of

In Spite of
I still remember how he would mistreat you
Get mad cuz supper wasn't hot enough...so he would beat you
Standing over you... After he physically defeated you
You made decision...
As a youngster I never depicted this vision...
In most cases it's the pops
Who skips out..and drops
Off the face of the earth....
What I wasn't worth....
It.....
I mean shit
what did I do?
After all you allowed him to name me his junior...couldn't even say the name....you called me #2
He stayed....
You parlayed.....
Ended in a makeshift foster home....
Told folks this was my granny's home...
While you out galavanting getting your life on.....
I'm lying to folks saying my Mom's dead....
Cuz in my head
That's the only way to deal.....
The scar won't ever heal...
Saw you twice in 7 years....
Greeted you with tears....
In turn you gave me a sibling....a chore...
Moved in with you..cuz u wanted your fam together.....Or
Was it to be a babysitter..
I still carry wounds...from when you caught me
Being mean to your precious 'baby'
This was Jerry Springer crazy....
19 years later.....
You act like nothing ever happened....
Ask me why I have distanced myself....
Why I don't call you for help
What's funny is........
in spite of....
All this...I wonder why I couldn't have my mother's love...

2011 is upon us