No Bandage

I hate you so much right now.....

Blank expression on your face asking why and how....

So you wanna talk bout my feelings now!!!

In the midst of fucking shit up right now...

32 years of pain..
What a damn shame..
Can't get over it...guess I'm to blame
Guess that's part of my twisted mind game...

Seems like outta spite I'm governed my life according to a conviction
Of never wanting to be like you...a faulty depiction
Of a man...
DAMN!!!!!!

I hate you so much right now....

Blank expression on your face asking why and how....

I've endured situations in life.....
Memories that cut deeper than a knife..
Motherfuckers that don't know ish...
Say I've made it.....live your life as you wish....

Made it through what?
Trial and error....can't go to anyone for advice
On growing up to be a man...
Had to devise my own plan...
This shit puts on display my strength and weaknesses man...
DAMN!!!!

Missed out on love...
That's all the fuck I ever wanted
Crying angry fucking tears....
If u knew....this anger would become one of your worst fucking fears...

So fucking out of touch with reality...
How the fuck could you possibly
Think you did right by me....
That spliff
Between ur fucking lips
Must have you high as shit...
What is it dipped in embalming fluid?
When I needed a father you weren't it!!!!

So fucking foolish....
Look at the life you ruined!!!!

Blank expression on your face asking why and how....

I hate you so much right now....

Loaded and locked in
Anger amped way the fuck past 10
Be weary of the mood I'm in...
Recollectin'
Waitin'
Cars I'm counting
Tears mounting


Collaterally damaged....
If I THINK I can't keep a promise to my kids....with guilt I'm ravaged.....
This wound still cuts deep...can't just patch it up with a fucking bandage.....

Blank expression on your face asking why and how....

I hate you so much right now......
One Love