Wednesday, December 23, 2015

Wrong forever

Wrong forever...
Gotta deal with the fact I did you wrong forever 
To hurt you... My intent never
Thought I was so clever
Get caught in my escapades... Who me? Never 
Tried to play it off....
Not wanting to seem soft
In pain... Tried to mask it
Should have been 1trillion when you asked it 
Instead I laughed it 
Off...My reply was I should have fucked her
Then maybe I'd have a reason to feel guilty
She hacked Facebook
Guess that was supposed to have a brotha shook
Kinda triggered a chain reaction 
Put cause to my action
Instead of pause to my action
Calculated risks
Foolish shit
Anyway... No discounts on your feelings and shit
Figured my love for you... 
Should have been enough for you...
You didn't trust me... Didn't trust you..
Either...
But you've made me a believer
Hindsight is 20/20
You gave me two chances.. That was plenty
No victims here...
Played into my strongest fear...
Co-starring myself and my ego...
So...
Deaf ears my apologies fell on
Tried in vain to show you I saw the error in my ways... So and so on
Guess you were too far gone 
Wrong forever...
I gotta deal with the fact I did you wrong forever

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

My Wish: John Cena http://es.pn/1MGce7M  -via ESPN http://es.pn/app

Thursday, July 16, 2015

Yeah I dig it

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Friday, February 27, 2015

Free Write

Forgive me...


I forgot to be that thoughtless nigga you're used to


Who knew


That it was better to treat a woman like shit..because that's what she is used to...


Guess I'm the sensitive one caught up in my feelings....yeah boo hoo


You ain't got time for feelings...do you?


Every time we talked bout that situation..


Shit would end up in frustration..


Thursday, October 16, 2014

Suicide Romance

All the while I was loving you...
You were telling folks you were single and could do 
Exactly what you wanted to
All the time I was so into you..
You would tell others how much I annoyed you...
Always telling you how much I loved you..
And the thought of that just sickened you
Spent so much time trying to prove to you that I was not like that last nigga
I figure 
You knew that
In fact I felt that was what held us back
I wasn't him...you knew me....
You knew how he'd be...
You couldn't see me
Or even what WE COULD BE
Too busy looking in the rear view
Girl you know it's true
Your intentions were fraudulent like Mili vanili
Lol...but you ain't feeling me
My silly ass was content with just a piece of you...
Like a star struck fan....happy with just a glimpse of you..
Stupid is just how I feel...
Can't shake it off...like damn is this really real?
I'd question shit..
Never wanting to discuss it..
Shut me down...
Shut us down...
Spiraling down
Down 
Down 
And as dumb as I sound
I continued to stick around
Now I'm so numb...
Still so dumb 
Heart's broken
And I'm hoping
For yet another chance..
To experience this suicide romance...

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Sobeit

A misconstrued notion
Filled by weakest of emotions
Find yourself played
Lost in many ways..
Breaking all your own rules
And the foolish things it made you do..
Cuz once the good morning texts...
Morning calls stop...Damn what's next
Passionless sex
Everything she does/he continues to do..
Bothers you...
Irks your nerves
Speaking using unkind words
Hostile verbs..
What was it to begin with?
Why did it have to end like this?
You laying in your bed.
Thoughts of them flowing thru your head
Wanna talk...but you bury your face in the pillow instead.
Don't believe in it...
Don't want it...
Admittedly.. there was a point and time.. I screamed it..
Dreamed it..
Would tell anyone who listened..
How I was lost in it....
Nose wide open..looking back I'm so disgusted..
This feeling... So useless
Fruitless
Truth is
This thing called love is....
Not for me..
I've failed miserably
Y'all can keep it...
Guess that means I'll forever be alone.....
Sobeit

Saturday, October 11, 2014

Blaze

I speak the truth so much it hurts...
What's worse 
Is
Nobody believes in me...
Sure they connect a few lines...
Pat me on the back a few times...
But hell what do I expect?
I'm gonna write it and express it...but y'all can't see it through my eyes yet...
Enter my soul
Truth be told..
Catch me now...cuz when things unfold
I'm a hot blazing comet
Nonstop it
I got this 
Infinite gift...
Record it..
Recite it...
Erase it...rewrite it..
Man I'm so excited
History re-spit it..
In my mind picture how I'd live it..
Just as powerful as God's vision for Konscript 
Look at my seeds and tell them... Yeah we did it...
Gave me so much inspiration...love when my heart wasn't in it..
When my mind drifted
To abysmal depth...
Your expression of love did much more than just help..
You saved me...
That love y'all give continues to amaze me...
Doing it for y'all.. Us...
We...not just
Today...tomorrow...and many days from now....
Gonna show them how
The mended mind of a King will always reign...
And that's just the first part of the game...