Reason to Rhyme

I wanna use the word vertigo

In a rhyme... And not like Pharrell.. I won't use cervical

Don't wanna be the best lyricist

Off top just saying shit

Wanna be like Pac... Have you feeling it

Get caught up in the rapture

Anita Baker...allow me to capture

Your intellect... Please no fakers

Keep it so simple... No need to dumb it down

No need to dress it up.. Make it seem so profound

Just gonna keep doing me

Effortlessly 

Maybe when I write... I will connect with 1 or 2 of you

Maybe even a few of you

Share my point of view

Maybe "greater" minds will break down what I do

How my every line

Seems to rhyme 

With every line

Or how I punctuate...

That maybe I don't have what it takes

Then it hit me...

I'm doing this for me

See

This is my therapy

This is my way of dealing with negativity

Kind of a loner.. So this is my peace

My release

Don't smoke to get high

I write to get by

I write to stay alive 

If it weren't for these simple rhymes

Truly think I would have lost my mind

So whether you dig it or not.... That's my reason to rhyme

Wrong forever

Wrong forever...

Gotta deal with the fact I did you wrong forever 

To hurt you... My intent never

Thought I was so clever

Get caught in my escapades... Who me? Never 

Tried to play it off....

Not wanting to seem soft

In pain... Tried to mask it

Should have been 1trillion when you asked it 

Instead I laughed it 

Off...My reply was I should have fucked her

Then maybe I'd have a reason to feel guilty

She hacked Facebook

Guess that was supposed to have a brotha shook

Kinda triggered a chain reaction 

Put cause to my action

Instead of pause to my action

Calculated risks

Foolish shit

Anyway... No discounts on your feelings and shit

Figured my love for you... 

Should have been enough for you...

You didn't trust me... Didn't trust you..

Either...

But you've made me a believer

Hindsight is 20/20

You gave me two chances.. That was plenty

No victims here...

Played into my strongest fear...

Co-starring myself and my ego...

So...

Deaf ears my apologies fell on

Tried in vain to show you I saw the error in my ways... So and so on

Guess you were too far gone 

Wrong forever...

I gotta deal with the fact I did you wrong forever

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Yeah I dig it

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Free Write

Forgive me...

I forgot to be that thoughtless nigga you're used to

Who knew

That it was better to treat a woman like shit..because that's what she is used to...

Guess I'm the sensitive one caught up in my feelings....yeah boo hoo

You ain't got time for feelings...do you?

Every time we talked bout that situation..

Shit would end up in frustration..

Suicide Romance

All the while I was loving you...

You were telling folks you were single and could do 

Exactly what you wanted to

All the time I was so into you..

You would tell others how much I annoyed you...

Always telling you how much I loved you..

And the thought of that just sickened you

Spent so much time trying to prove to you that I was not like that last nigga

I figure 

You knew that

In fact I felt that was what held us back

I wasn't him...you knew me....

You knew how he'd be...

You couldn't see me

Or even what WE COULD BE

Too busy looking in the rear view

Girl you know it's true

Your intentions were fraudulent like Mili vanili

Lol...but you ain't feeling me

My silly ass was content with just a piece of you...

Like a star struck fan....happy with just a glimpse of you..

Stupid is just how I feel...

Can't shake it off...like damn is this really real?

I'd question shit..

Never wanting to discuss it..

Shut me down...

Shut us down...

Spiraling down

Down 

Down 

And as dumb as I sound

I continued to stick around

Now I'm so numb...

Still so dumb 

Heart's broken

And I'm hoping

For yet another chance..

To experience this suicide romance...

Sobeit

A misconstrued notion
Filled by weakest of emotions
Find yourself played
Lost in many ways..
Breaking all your own rules
And the foolish things it made you do..
Cuz once the good morning texts...
Morning calls stop...Damn what's next
Passionless sex
Everything she does/he continues to do..
Bothers you...
Irks your nerves
Speaking using unkind words
Hostile verbs..
What was it to begin with?
Why did it have to end like this?
You laying in your bed.
Thoughts of them flowing thru your head
Wanna talk...but you bury your face in the pillow instead.
Don't believe in it...
Don't want it...
Admittedly.. there was a point and time.. I screamed it..
Dreamed it..
Would tell anyone who listened..
How I was lost in it....
Nose wide open..looking back I'm so disgusted..
This feeling... So useless
Fruitless
Truth is
This thing called love is....
Not for me..
I've failed miserably
Y'all can keep it...
Guess that means I'll forever be alone.....
Sobeit