Heated

They say money make them cum..... Around
I remember when some of y'all were nowhere to be found..
No y'all twisting your lips.. Running round
With the fake I'm so happy for you.. Blah blah blah two thumbs way down
Don't give a shit how bitter I sound
It's the truth I grin and bear it now..
Middle finger to you bastards.. My disgust how y'all wear it now
On top of the world I sit..
Messed up though... Cuz I'm still lonely as shit..
Won't blame it on you bums... It's my situation to fix
I rather have these lonely days
Then spend it in the phoniest of ways
In my head these thoughts so twisted
But I also see it so vivid
I gotta do for self...
I stick my hand out.. But get no help..
Don't be alarmed I despise all of you equally
None of you are unique to me
Just the way I've got to be
To keep my sanity
If words could kill... I'd hang all of you simultaneously
I gave all of me... In reality
It wasn't money
So to some I gave nothing..
I gave my time... But to my ex she only wanted one thing
I'm gonna send her good will hunting
Let me stop before I say too much
And folk start saying I'm crazy and such
Don't let this anger get ahold of me...
Konscript aka Bruce Banner folks won't like it when I'm angry

Lol

Break Up

I love you... How those words ring so hollow...
I cringe at your actions that are soon to follow
Even a tougher pill to swallow
In a maze of self pity I seem to wallow
As if this is the best I can get
As if I deserve this shit
Twisted in this bullshit element
My constant lessons
I've poured out my soul.. My confessions
This empty progression
Has me to a point where I'm second guessing
Me... Got me feeling like I'm an ain't shit nigga
Cuz I can't seem to figure
How this got so bad..
So instead of getting mad
I'm turning to the bottle like I've never had
Loud smoking
Downing bottles of Heineken
Hitting bottles of tequila
Till I no longer feel ya
Condescending grip on my reality..
What a tragedy...
Instead of shining my light on you...
You've swallowed me in your darkness and brought me into your purgatory times 2...
I think you believe I need you...
Oh damn how untrue..
This might be above your level of understanding
But I don't see how you get off demanding
Something aren't willing to be
I thought of giving you all of me
But you can't handle this portion see...
So it's best if we no longer be

Aspire to Be

Aspire to be
See
I can never be
Content with half ass efforts
Because in the long run it's not just me that hurts
I'm trying to magnify my worth
I'm not talking pocket change
But I am talking change
Rearrange
Past perceptions
Without any exceptions
Do away with the regular nigga syndrome
Which is something I can't condone
Things like this you have to do on your own
I can't make you...
As much as I want to
The burden of proof
Lies within you... Can't just blame it on your youth
It's of no use
It's no excuse
You gotta do for self
Along the way there will be those that may offer help
Still only you can succeed
As long as you believe
You will achieve
Your wildest dreams
No matter how impossible it may seem
Just aspire to Be......

Thank you

I resisted God's invitation

On numerous occasions

Found myself in many dark situations

I wouldn't go to church..read the bible or anything...my excuse was.."God knows my heart"

But I was so reluctant to play my part

I didn't want to do it

Didn't want to pursue it

Even in my youth

I found ways to twist the truth

I lied

Cheated

Did things for selfish reasons..

Didn't put God first

So in everything I did..it would go from bad to worse

Full of pride.. my anger would curse

God..spiraled into a bout of self pity even depression

Because I refused to learn my lesson

I contemplated suicide

Driven by anger..hate and pride

My thoughts were focused only on me

Not my kids..my family...just me

Then God hit me with reality

By my own destructive ways I was homeless

Jobless

Pennyless...

Without relying on God I wouldn't survive

I thought it was something

Without God I'm nothing

I'm not ashamed

To proclaim

My faith

To let it be known

That God has shown

Me so much mercy

And I can't say nothing but Thank you

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Freestyle'd

When he hits me...

That's just his way of saying he loves me...

Sometimes I want him to hit me...I know its wrong...

But that ish be turning me on..

Then he beat it all night long..

To our favorite song

I don't be meaning to put my hands on the chick..

But sometimes I don't wanna hear all that lip..

Like Jigga say..I was just fucking them girls.. I was gonna get right back...

And my chick know that..

He says I'm nothing without him...

Built on lies..but I'm starting to believe them

Scared to be alone...so I choose to ignore friends

They tell me that he ain't no good..

And instead of this thing with him....I let long time relationships come to an end

I am a strong Christian...

Something ain't right with how I'm witnessing

Got Tom..Leroy..and Jamal steady coming in and out..

While my doors stare revolvin'

But here I stand judgin...

Him and him..her and her just cuz how they livin'

See my sins..just regular sin...

But what they doin'

Is a damn abomination...

And for that..I'm not voting for the President of our nation

It aint them thats killing us...

Its us that's killing us...

In the instances where they shoot us

We cause such a hectic fuss

We join in false harmony...

Turn a deaf ear

To problems that are near

And should be dear

To their heart

But that's not where they start

Some of us are drunk off society

I'm waiting for that moment of sobriety

Where we come to our senses.

And take steps to end this.

Endless

Senseless

Series of ill fated antics

that I can't even stomach...just makes me sick

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Thank You

Not just today

But everyday

In every way

I can think of countless things to say

A million flowers on display

But that still wouldn't parlay

Enough gratitude to say

Happy Mother's Day

Some of you go at it alone...

Be the single provider...disciplinarian...problem solver...comforter in your home

You have scarce time that is your own

But you sacrifice

So much to give the kind of life

That you deem right

With wisdom and blessing from up above

Your heart is filled with so much love

We thank you....

When you're overwhelmed with the stress of society

And at your wits end..when you cry out Why me?

We thank you....

When things just don't seem to be going right

And when you can't quite see after the darkness there will be light

We thank you....

One of the greatest gifts in the world is being a mother

Like none other

You give so much to the world

Handsome little boys..and precious baby girls

Carry the future

For that I can't say enough to thank you...

We love you

Appreciate you

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3:59a.m.

3:59 a.m. ain't nothing open but legs...

I know that very well...

I'm tryna get this young vixen to show and tell...

She got this addiction...

That needs fixin'

Needs some tender lickin'

A steady dose of friction...

Oooh that sexy vixen....

She does these tricks and...

The way she licks her lips and...

She knows how to get a brother stiff and...

Skin glistenin'

Throw her on the bed....from behind I'm enterin' 

No longer whisperin'

Strokin'

Going deep in...

Grippin

hair pullin'

Back of her neck I'm kissin'

Climaxin.....

Relaxin.....

Just turned 4:37

Now we exhalin.........

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