Aspire to Be

Aspire to be
See
I can never be
Content with half ass efforts
Because in the long run it's not just me that hurts
I'm trying to magnify my worth
I'm not talking pocket change
But I am talking change
Rearrange
Past perceptions
Without any exceptions
Do away with the regular nigga syndrome
Which is something I can't condone
Things like this you have to do on your own
I can't make you...
As much as I want to
The burden of proof
Lies within you... Can't just blame it on your youth
It's of no use
It's no excuse
You gotta do for self
Along the way there will be those that may offer help
Still only you can succeed
As long as you believe
You will achieve
Your wildest dreams
No matter how impossible it may seem
Just aspire to Be......

Thank you

I resisted God's invitation

On numerous occasions

Found myself in many dark situations

I wouldn't go to church..read the bible or anything...my excuse was.."God knows my heart"

But I was so reluctant to play my part

I didn't want to do it

Didn't want to pursue it

Even in my youth

I found ways to twist the truth

I lied

Cheated

Did things for selfish reasons..

Didn't put God first

So in everything I did..it would go from bad to worse

Full of pride.. my anger would curse

God..spiraled into a bout of self pity even depression

Because I refused to learn my lesson

I contemplated suicide

Driven by anger..hate and pride

My thoughts were focused only on me

Not my kids..my family...just me

Then God hit me with reality

By my own destructive ways I was homeless

Jobless

Pennyless...

Without relying on God I wouldn't survive

I thought it was something

Without God I'm nothing

I'm not ashamed

To proclaim

My faith

To let it be known

That God has shown

Me so much mercy

And I can't say nothing but Thank you

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Freestyle'd

When he hits me...

That's just his way of saying he loves me...

Sometimes I want him to hit me...I know its wrong...

But that ish be turning me on..

Then he beat it all night long..

To our favorite song

I don't be meaning to put my hands on the chick..

But sometimes I don't wanna hear all that lip..

Like Jigga say..I was just fucking them girls.. I was gonna get right back...

And my chick know that..

He says I'm nothing without him...

Built on lies..but I'm starting to believe them

Scared to be alone...so I choose to ignore friends

They tell me that he ain't no good..

And instead of this thing with him....I let long time relationships come to an end

I am a strong Christian...

Something ain't right with how I'm witnessing

Got Tom..Leroy..and Jamal steady coming in and out..

While my doors stare revolvin'

But here I stand judgin...

Him and him..her and her just cuz how they livin'

See my sins..just regular sin...

But what they doin'

Is a damn abomination...

And for that..I'm not voting for the President of our nation

It aint them thats killing us...

Its us that's killing us...

In the instances where they shoot us

We cause such a hectic fuss

We join in false harmony...

Turn a deaf ear

To problems that are near

And should be dear

To their heart

But that's not where they start

Some of us are drunk off society

I'm waiting for that moment of sobriety

Where we come to our senses.

And take steps to end this.

Endless

Senseless

Series of ill fated antics

that I can't even stomach...just makes me sick

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Thank You

Not just today

But everyday

In every way

I can think of countless things to say

A million flowers on display

But that still wouldn't parlay

Enough gratitude to say

Happy Mother's Day

Some of you go at it alone...

Be the single provider...disciplinarian...problem solver...comforter in your home

You have scarce time that is your own

But you sacrifice

So much to give the kind of life

That you deem right

With wisdom and blessing from up above

Your heart is filled with so much love

We thank you....

When you're overwhelmed with the stress of society

And at your wits end..when you cry out Why me?

We thank you....

When things just don't seem to be going right

And when you can't quite see after the darkness there will be light

We thank you....

One of the greatest gifts in the world is being a mother

Like none other

You give so much to the world

Handsome little boys..and precious baby girls

Carry the future

For that I can't say enough to thank you...

We love you

Appreciate you

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3:59a.m.

3:59 a.m. ain't nothing open but legs...

I know that very well...

I'm tryna get this young vixen to show and tell...

She got this addiction...

That needs fixin'

Needs some tender lickin'

A steady dose of friction...

Oooh that sexy vixen....

She does these tricks and...

The way she licks her lips and...

She knows how to get a brother stiff and...

Skin glistenin'

Throw her on the bed....from behind I'm enterin' 

No longer whisperin'

Strokin'

Going deep in...

Grippin

hair pullin'

Back of her neck I'm kissin'

Climaxin.....

Relaxin.....

Just turned 4:37

Now we exhalin.........

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Platonic

Seems nonexistent..

How folks have made things so irrelevant...

Folks seem hell bent

On making everyone their boo...

Yes you...

Its so true...

Simple conversations...

Find it going in so many destinations...

The front one of y'all is perpetrating...

Thinking every man that so subtlely speaks...

You automatically assume its your treasure he seeks....

Guess I will be that dime out of a dozen

That didn't come at you buzzing....

That didn't try to pry apart your thighs..cuz trust me I wasn't..

Didn't use my so called charm

To slickly disarm...

You....

Yes...it is true...

That compliment....

Was just that...no intent...

Nothing to decipher...it just meant

Exactly what it said....

But you chose to let those foolish thoughts play in your head...

Instead..

You will play it like....

Probably say it like.....

That nigga was trying to come at me...

But see...

I can spot a dog a mile away...

Knowing it didn't even pan out that way...

You set yourself up for failure honey...

I find it quite funny...

Let me guess.....you were gonna play hard to get?

But yet......

I didn't even want your numba..

Didn't want nothing from ya...

How ironic....

I just wanted a friendship....that was merely platonic.

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Sticks and Stones

Sticks and stones.....

Never wanted my kids to be a product of a broken home....

Rather have that pain from broken bones..

Hate being daddy over the phone...

Guess for my sins... I have to atone....

When I had the chance...I wish I'd shown...

Who i could be....instead I'm here..all alone....

Watching other dads with their kids...and thinking of chances I had....how they've been blown...

What did I expect...I too was a victim of a broken home....

Guess my past...set the tone....

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