Saga 5

As I travel down this road trip
My mental starts to flip..
Common sense starts to dip..
Rage sets in real quick..
So effing pissed
Wanna unleash some shit..
People say
Don't feel that way..
You made it in spite of
What was
A horrible measure
What part of this lesson am
I to treasure?
Look for the light?
The false spot that's bright?
Aiight...
Didn't know how to love..
Looked at the Father above
Why did u forsake me?
For goodness sake..please..
On my knees..
Crying hysterically
Why me?
Without pain there is no gain..
This shit I look at with disdain
In my mind, I gotta bear the burden
Of years of tears, constant hurting..
What's certain
This got the best of me..
Invisible scars they seem to be..
This situation aint mine exclusively
It effects you..
Millions more than a few..
The evil that these "men" do...
if only they knew
The damage they do..
Tryna close this chapter
Happiness is what I'm after..
Somewhere I hear the devils laughter
Imma haunt u...I'm that bastard !

Saga 4

Thru blurred vision
With delicate
Precision
I compose these lines..
Weave these rhymes
Tell stories of a hideous lifetime..
What did I do to deserve this?
at times I get pissed..
these feelings I've dismissed
For many years..
I've hid the tears
I despise that nigga
In his mind it doesn't figure..
He doesn't understand
Why I don't speak
don't seek
Advice on life
How trife..
When I needed ur ass..
Nowhere in sight..
Doing ur own shit right?
And now cuz guilt corriding
Ur organs u wanna make it right?
Get a clue..
My life aint perfect but went along decent with you..
Few bumps along the way
But hell what can I say.
What u expect man
U kinda forced my hand..
I got kids
Your grandkids..
Put in ur bid
Pay up ur waaaay past due
Til then Fuck You
Times 2

Saga 3

He called himself a King..
After all in his name was the true meaning..
He came to this country
To seize the American Dream..
On top of the world it seems.
African men seem made
To dominate
Have their way with women
Try to control their fate
Along the way he made a mistake..
Decided to impregnate
A teen
With a mother heartless
Extremely mean..
Now he in it deep
Oh shit
Real steep
Now he got a wife
Baby to keep
Healthy and fed..
words empty..full of contempt though
Fists of rage he will show
This young chick
Who she think she fucking with?
Smack her in her shit..
Make her ass submit..
I run this shit..
He would torment her
Mentally destroy her.
Physically abuse her..
Sexually misuse her..
He hated her..
She hated him .
He hated self...
Fool needed help..
Its real sad..
This was my excuse for a Dad...

Saga 2

Momma couldn't be patient..
In me she saw him..
Something she hated...
A child having a child
Couldn't be more evident
Supposed to be her gift ya know
Heaven sent...
Instead my presence
She treated as a life sentence..
She switched my tears for fears
The nigga would strike her
When he came near..
Clutching me close..
Blood flowing from her nose.
She shaking like a baby..
It was a nightmare
She shaking the baby..
somebody save me...
Crazy
She aint ask for this...
Wishing she could slit her wrists..
Bride by suicide..
his touch makes her wanna hide..
Drunk in between her legs he tries
To climb..
Not this time..
Before he puts it in
She strikes him...
runs..runs...runs..
I hate you..
I hate ur being...
I hate everything..
Nigga fuck you...

Saga 1

Product of a chester
type situation
24 year old molester
16 year old mother..
Threatened by a vicious grandmother
Stating if u don't marry my daughter
I'm gonna make ur life a living hell
Don't dwell
On it too long
Before u in jail singing that sad song
Horrible choice predicated this
occurrence..damn its wrong...
Domestic violence
Granny's deafening silence
This niggas arrogance
Momma lost patience..
Makes no sense..
Cuz of Granny's perceived embarrassment
This is how the story went..
Question after question
Still don't know the lesson
Stressing..
Cause of my depression
Why was I dealt this funny hand?
Why couldn't he be the bigger man?

Beautiful Independence

The beauty of an independent woman is that she don't need you
She wants you
In my opinion a comforting point of view
at times this point goes askew
Some women wear it like a badge talkin bout Hi my name is Monica I don't need you for shit nigga Walker...what's ur name?
How lame...
Its like applications that offer at will employment
He the at will boyfriend
Can be terminated for any cost
she calling shots like the Boss..
Now he subject to a layoff
Cuz that tough chick stuff ain't payoff
Now he acting blue..
Don't worry she sad too..
We never talk bout the doodoo that some women do..
sometimes be so petty
see I understand
U may have been done wrong by that other man
Don't hold this guy accountable
Gotta hate them odds..damn near insurmountable..
set in his ways u can't change a nigga
Go figure..
Don't make ur goal
To pacify to mold
Not in ur control
U tryna be with a man..
Not raising one.
Can't be fun...
Can't speak for everyone..
But I like to unwrap
My gifts..not have it butt naked in my lap..
Not right away anyway
Along with a phat ass...
I dig class..grace..
Good taste..
she more than a pretty face
Gotta be my homie..my ace
Everything will fall in place..
Aint no games..just understand the pace..
we out there..
U will kiss ur fair share
Of frogs dogs whatever have u
But ur king is out there waiting on u
Until then handle ur B.I.

Incoming Call

Like 2 ships in the night...
We slide past each other this aint right..
U coming..I'm going in..
That 12 to 10
In a cycle we spin
U that 11 to 7
Caught in the tailwind..
On the mission for that getty green
By any and all means..
But I'm missing u...
U missing me too..
Steal a few
Seconds to minutes
To hear it...
Ur voice...
Telling u need me..
U want me to touch ur body..
Make it sing..
Do them freaky things..
More importantly
She wants to connect with me..
Exclusively
Just we...
My Queen..
I'm her King..
Can't wait to hold u...
Melt in each others..
Presence..
A little incense...
some soothing tunes..
Set a beautiful mood..
In tune with u...
Gotta love that
Lovers groove