Ampersand(and)

I wanna be flowers and
Sweet chocolate and
Fine dinner with wine and
Melodic melodies meant to ease and
Symphonies..and
Trips to Tiffany's and
Wanna fulfill all ur fantasies and
be the man u need and
Make u believe and
Restore faith in love and
Have u treat it as a give from above and
Judge me for my heart and
Be true and open from the start and...
Don't look at my pockets
Trust I got it locked and
Imma put in the work and
Best believe. I know this womans' worth and
Don't need materialistic empty wishing and
The love she been missing and
If she keep kissing ....and
Imma start touching and...
Imma let u fill in the blanks and..
For her love imma give thanks and...
She's my blessing..
No second guessing

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Next Stop: Splittsville

On the road to splittsville..
So surreal
Can't describe how this makes me feel..
We were so better than this..
Used to complete each others sentences..
Swear I can't comprehend this..
Now you putting words in my mouth..
Direction of this convo quickly heading down south
Tryna irk my nerves
Ur using those scintillating words..
Wanna make them sparks fly..
I say the wrong thing and u ready to cry
Back and forth..
Saying the wildest shit of any sort..
Thinking of the meanest thing to say..
Kinda wish things would go ur way
So u take ur best shot
Not thinking of feelings and what not...
This aint what lovers do...
Everything not based solely on ur point of view...
Things not the same...that's true..
They say it takes 2
To make a thing go right...
Lately all we can do is fight..
So much tension and spite...
Don't even know what to think anymore...
This can't go on...that I know for sure...
Gonna just push me out the door
Is that what ur aiming for?
For goodness sake
I've had all that I'm gonna take....
I'm on the front door of Heartbreak..
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Court me

Go head and play the victim
Acting like u didn't pick him...
Like he had the gun drawn...
What kinda b.s. are u on?
Remember u said u liked them cocky..
But now u say u can't stand him when things are rocky...
if it doesn't go according to plan
He wasn't a real man...
I mean damn...
Really? the man always wrong?
U singing that sad song...
Moody boo boo blues...
Now on to these dudes..
So concerned with swagger
Treat women like prey till u bag her..
Then its on to the next one
And then some...
Get mad when a smart chick
Says she don't want that tainted dick
Thinking u can game her with ur weak ass Jedi mind trick
Then she become a hoe..calling her a basic bitch..
seems like both sex
Think love revolves round paychecks..
thinking dollar signs
Combined
With some ass be the ties that bind...
Must be out ur mind
Remember a time...
When people dated with respect...
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Dreams

At night I lay awake...terrified
Scared to close my eyes..
These dreams have me traumatized
Visions of me in a wreck...permanently paralyzed...
Watching the evening news
Can paint life in disgusting hues
Hell no...its not all good
Kids dying every day in every hood..
But some of us so damn blind..
Acknowledge the problem but say its not mine...
We so numb
These crimes be so reckless and dumb..
2 year old shot dead...some activist talking bout he has a plan of action
Let's get signs and go march..met with an even lameduck reaction..
Just recently watched the movie 2012..
I'm like what the hell?
Basing every solely on science
Not relying on the man upstairs at all for guidance..
Not tryna be on the soapbox..
But we gotta believe in something greater than ourselves so kick rocks..
I do my thing..mentoring this young dude
That used to be hella rude
Used always tell his momma she get on his nerves cuz she always bitching
Was never in class...always ditching
Told him this aint the good life ..
On this ride there will be nothing but struggle and strife...
Do something positive with ur life...
Change gonna come...
I'm steady dreaming.....

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That "Talk Show" Ish

Truth be told..
Some of yall belong on steve wilkos..
It goes way beyond baby mama drama..
Maury Povich..
Multiple visiting
Panicking...
Contestant number 9
Saying.."I swear that baby aint mine"
Mama on some "1000% sure its urs..he got ur eyes"
And..........You are not the father!!!!!!!!!
She storm off crying...hell why bother...
While she faking shock..
This asshole on the stage tryna pop and lock..
Jumping up and down..
Acting like a damn clown!
Maury on some don't cry...don't cry
We can find him as long as you are willing to try...
How you figure
Things will be better searching for that fleet footed nigga?
Kinda crazy
It amazes me
The level of humiliation
They think is the cure all for this situation..
Degradation
You know how quick times fly
5-6 years go by
Lil dude watching re_runs....
See a woman who letting off a bunch of bleeps as the tears run...
Acting an ass-out idiot...
Not even as good as it gets..
Turns up the volume..
Listens to the parade of dudes..
That aren't his daddy..
He aint happy...
Looks at his mother in a different light...
Moral..looking for the donor don't always make it right
In retrospect
Kinda suspect..
Not a good look to re evaluate ur self respect..
Better yet for millions and millions to be at ur neck
Shoulda kept ur legs closed..eyes wide open
So it would be no hoping
This dude is the father
Sure life will be a little harder
Its ok...do whatever not to damage your kids esteem..
I mean...
It aint their fault dude hit the highway full steam
You had that ugly wild streak as a teen
They call the the black sheep..
But Cousin...no love lost..
You suffered enough..more than paid the cost....
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Man Up!!!!!!

After weeks of pitching woo and shit...
Young fella coming at her with dick in hand ready to hit..
Fills her head with them Trey Songz dreams..
But he aint ready for them type of things..
Few weeks go by..she tells him she's with child..
Bitch u must be out your mind!!!
It aint mine!!
Me and the fellas had a bet to see which one could hit first
By the way that worse
I ever had..
Don't get mad..
Just find that baby's dad!
Product of my environment..
Bullshit sentiment..
Useless
As those lame excuses
Cycle that's so ruthless..
Truth is
Don't seem to be an end in sight
Something gotta be done...this aint right...
Fuck a shaving lesson..
Give your sons a damn life lesson
Help them understand the point I'm stressing..
Cowards run away from responsibilty...
I get it..some chicks be shifty
But ultimately..
Its on us..
Between our legs the loaded weapon..
Screw what you heard..aint no immaculate conception...
Running and ducking.....
It was all good when yall were just fucking..
You were the same lil dude
On the stoop
In a sad mood
Cuz daddy didn't show up as planned..
Imma be a better man..
Remember that huff..
Where's that lil boy..were u talking tough?
Or some think if stick around
You and baby mama gonna be getting down...
Or u get mad when she wanna move on with her life..
Don't do right by ur seed..nigga u so trife..
Letting another brotha raise your seed..
Uz a bitch nigga indeed...
Some dudes all they do is throw money...
Funny
Your child is gonna think his daddy's name is Benjamin..
Be a real man.....don't pretend!
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This Here Must Cease

Remember the thing called respect..
Now fools running round talking out the side of their necks..
Then we have sensitive pussy foot ass niggas..
So quick to pull the trigger..
Somebody call u out ur name..
And u taking aim..
When does it stop..
Whose to blame?
We living movie star lives aka Belly..like we Tommy Buns
Living by the sword..dying by guns...
Remember when brothas used to box it out..
U know toe to toe tryna knock u out..
U know what I'm talking bout..
We have the rapping cats
Talking how they kill this...shoot that..
And our youth take it as fact
Fools yelling out affiliation over music tracks
Making money by selling these flashy dreams
Amongst other things..
in Chicago..they old school gun slinging
20 shot 7 dead..
Lucky 13
Soon as the weather warms
Its a sad but becoming
A familiar scene
Grieving mother screaming bout they took my baby...
Maybe
We can stop this as a community....
Need unity
So much violence..
Can't be met with the usual silence..
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